Fill in myself before giving something away

Suddenly I see that I did so little to myself...I contribute only my talents, my power and my hardwork to my company, my church and my family...but not my happiness to them... that's why I feel so reluctant to do so many things...working for money, pleasing others, bear all the hardship in my heart, share with none my work load...and forever seems so responsible...
If an ice cream can satisfy me, why do i keep fasting and make myself grievy? Be good to myself and so that I will enjoy and be others joy, I just like a water pool give water without new water came in...after I'm dry...there'd be nothing to hope for. So I need is just to satisfy myself first and serve others! I can gain power from the beautiful world God provided me, the beautiful people God set around me, and also the beautiful prayer the church taught me to say...
So tomorrow I am gonna shopping for my shopping list! Haha! Great!
A scanner for home use, a new digital camera, and some barbecue folks:-D I love my thought! Go and buy them tomorrow morning!~~heart flying~~