Monday, August 14, 2006

Going to Beihai with my Daddy

This morning my daddy and I went to Beihai park altogether. We had a great time there.
There are lots of activities in Beihai for the old, very interesting. Some playing guitar, some playing traditional instruments, and some playing sports.
We also went to many of the temples inside of beihai, beihai was a temple before so there're lots of Budhist temples. you may view my yahoo photo album for details.
About lunch time we finished our beihai tour, then we went to the Houhai bar street. We had great time there watching the pure Beijing scenery. My daddy complains about too many low educated immigrant workers now in Beijing, made beijing so dirty and low. Anyway, it's already like that, they already are the primary population of Beijing.We could just try our best to be good, as good as the old beijingers.
After the bar street tour, we went back home.

Sunday, August 13, 2006

Retreat at Teresa's Farmland

It's been 3 years I haven't been to Teresa's farmland, the God Grace Garden, 3G in this name means the Trinity. everything's so meaningful to her.
We planed to leave by 7:30am from the South Cathedral, but since somebody were late so we at last left by 9am! But everything was fine on the way, we arrived by 10:30am.
After we arrived we started our activity, we firstly introduced ourselves, I was the translator and the guitar player. all of us enjoyed so much of the activity. I even translated the songs into Chinese version! Haha!
After few talks it comes the lunch time. after lunch was 3 talks again, when I feel tired, I give floor to Kevin, to let him help me on translation. He's so kind lah!
About 5:30pm, we started our game time, the first one was blind folded team game led by the leader to overcome some obstarcles, and the second & third game were about passing balloon games. The fourth game was the hardest and the most interesting one, heaven and earth, we have to group by team to pass the rings, no touching the rings, otherwise the whole group will play it all over again, it's quite hard, and we tried our best to do it, by helping each other and great team work spirit, we hold each other to the other side, or some brothers offered their back for others to step on through.
The session was wonderful. After playing the games we started our barbeque dinner. I drunk a bottle of wine coz my tablets made me don't want to eat anything. but I was wrong because of the wrong place drinking:-p, although I will never get drunk in few bottles, but it's not the right place to drink alcohol.
Later came the time of performance. I was also translating, and I sang a song with my guitar, some people danced. Later there was the last game, Christ's light. we had to protect our candle's light from some people that intended to blow it off. If it's off we had to enlighten it again from the main candle. I was cheating, haha, because I had a lighter:-p
Then the first day was finished, we came to the next day.
On the next day we also started with 3talks, by Gary, Kevin and Erik. I was translating for Gary and Erik...Gary's semi Chinese~English talk made me almost crazy...haha, but it's quite interesting an experience:-p Kevin talked great about faithfulness and order-would be a hard topic for me-then was the time we committ to the Lord, we drawed our feet onto a color paper, and wrote on it our committment, cut it and post it onto the board shaped like a mountain. We loved it so much. Later...I got alot of love notes! Oh, I mean the note of appreciation. I was so moved by their lovliness. At last was the picture time and lunch time. Later we finished completely.
On the bus, Onell reminded me the birthday of Fr.John...I was so bad, I almost forgot his birthday! How could be?! He's my best priest friend!
I drawed a card for him on the way, for everybody to sign on it. I love the card, because I thought it's quite beautiful!
Later we came to the south cathedral and we started our Mass, I read the first reading and the Psalm. Maiya read the second reading, we all came onto the altar coz we're few, and I played guitar during the Mass-I found it's almost impossible to play guitar without amplifyer in the church, sound goes slowly-but everything was fine! We had our holy communion of bread and wine!
I enjoyed so much of the Mass and at last we celebrated birthday for Fr.John with a cake in the church yard.

Thursday, August 10, 2006

New life without him!

I decide to quit my love to him, it's a big decision, I can't hold it on anymore, it's such a boring thing to love him so much for one year. I've had enough of it!
It's his fault never had told me that he had a gf, it's his fault never told me he doesn't like me at all, it's also his fault to let me be...so that's why I had wasted one year on him...
It's not only his fault of course, because I am so passionate, none could ever stop my mind. So I was loving him with my whole heart and soul, I could not blame him, coz he'd been my friend and cared for me...
woofs...my soul's free
Sure that I already quited the love, sure that I already forgot. I will give him more space of mind in his life...
Staying in the English Choir was all because of him, otherwise I left long before...but right now I...should I leave? I still like there...okay, just give myself few weeks to recover from my throat problem, later I will decide whether to leave.
I can't speak always...I lost my voice twice already. And I had serious tratheitis in the past. And I love singing that much!I should really have taken care of myself, quit smoking soon, or at least smoke much less than before. I also should be happy so that I could do my new program well,being a trainer that I must speak up! I love this program, and I believe that I could have done it! For sure!
This love is probably the longest love of my life, I will never love anyone more than him, but I will quit, because I loved. Love is such a poison, it kills and gives pain, but people would rather take it to get rid of this messy deadly world...I will get strong of myself to work on my dream!
Forget me, I will leave you alone.
---I will forget you! Forget what you had done to hurt me and what you'd done to let me cry!

At last it's began

I started my work today! the training program had been prepared for ages, now it's began! I am so happy!
This morning was the prep-talk, although there'd been some technical problems, but I solved it well:-P
Tomorrow will be the first lesson, next week will be fully started! It's Great!