Saturday, October 14, 2006

What is love?

I would question God: what is love? Since dating with my "boyfriend" for quite a while, but I still don't know what is the meaning of love. I ever experienced the feeling of love was just with the only one I loved before...maybe yet still...
We attended a music event this day, and they were all stood before me and met each other...of course, I believe two of them recognized each other by my secret introduction. But my heart told me my boyfriend isn't the one I love!
I was shy to hold his hand before him, and I was shy to look at him when he walks with me...to call them meet each other is this way was my way to let myself really let go of the one I loved, but I am not sure how could this be done successfully, everytime I tend to let something done, it goes the other way!
I am afraid of the relation in this way...but whatever...probably it's good just to let them stay in their respective place and not seeing each other, this would be easier for me to deal with.
I really wish him love me...as my love for him...
Today we took some pictures with my performance white gown. they look like wedding pictures, although boyfriend doesn't like, but he knows what I mean...
I love him...still...
If this is the way of love, let it be...

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Windows XP command line dictionary

Here is all the cmd commands in windows XP! Well it's fairly useful
http://www.microsoft.com/resources/documentation/windows/xp/all/proddocs/en-us/ntcmds.mspx?mfr=true
I was fighting my Debian for a long time~ recently got some small progress, so happy of that!
My C programming lesson is almost finished, don't know when can I compose my own better program since mine is always very funny and messy~~~ crying~~~
But today I am very happy because I tracked back my gmail password! Otherwise I supposed to die of it! I would miss my google blogger!

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

complaints in English/Chinese/French

1. Stop complaining!别发牢骚! 1 rales pas!
2. You make me sick!你真让我恶心! 2 tu me rends mal au coeur!
3. What’s wrong with you?你怎么回事? 3 qu'est-ce que t'as?
4. You shouldn’t have done that!你真不应该那样!4 t'aurais pas du le faire!
5. You’re a jerk!你是个废物/混球! 5 t'es une merde!
6. Don’t talk to me like that!别那样和我说话!6 me hurles pas comme ca!
7. Who do you think you are?你以为你是谁? 7 t'es pas le coussin de roi!
8. What’s your problem?你怎么回事啊? 8 qu'est-ce que t'as?
9. I hate you!我讨厌你! 9 tu me degoutes!
10. I don’t want to see your face!我不愿再见到你! 10 je veux plus jamais te voir!
11. You’re crazy!你疯了!11 t'as perdu la raison!
12. Are you insane/crazy/out of your mind?你疯了吗?(美国人绝对常用!) 12 t'es fou ou quoi?
13. Don’t bother me. 别烦我。 13 fous moi le paix!
14. Knock it off. 少来这一套。 14 m'envoies pas des fleures!
15. Get out of my face. 从我面前消失! 15 vas te faire foutre!
16. Leave me alone. 走开。 16 laisses moi tranquille!
17. Get lost.滚开! 17 vas t'en!
18. Take a hike!哪儿凉快哪儿歇着去吧。 18 va chier ailleur!
19. You piss me off. 你气死我了。 19 tu me piques!
20. It’s none of your business. 关你屁事! 20 ca te regarde pas!
21. What’s the meaning of this?这是什么意思? 21 ca veux dire?
22. How dare you!你敢! 22 oses toi ?!
23. Cut it out. 省省吧。 23 c'est pas la peine!
24. You stupid jerk!你这蠢猪! 24 t'es con /conne!
25. You have a lot of nerve. 脸皮真厚。 25 tu tiens des insults comme gloire!
26. I’m fed up. 我厌倦了。 26 j'en ai par-dessus la tete!
27. I can’t take it anymore. 我受不了了!(李阳老师常用) 27 j'en ai marre!
28. I’ve had enough of your garbage. 我听腻了你的废话。 28 j'en ai assaz ,tes betisent!
29. Shut up!闭嘴! 29 ferme ta boite
30. What do you want?你想怎么样? 30 qu'est-ce que tu veux faire?
31. Do you know what time it is?你知道现在都几点吗?31 vous avez l'heure?
32. What were you thinking?你脑子进水啊? 32 t'as quoi dans la boule?
33. How can you say that?你怎么可以这样说? 33 comment peux-tu le dire?
34. Who says?谁说的? 34 qui le dis?
35. That’s what you think!那才是你脑子里想的! 35 c'est que ce que tu penses!
36. Don’t look at me like that. 别那样看着我。 36 me regardes pas comme ca!
37. What did you say?你说什么? 37 qu'est-ce que t'as dit?
38. You are out of your mind. 你脑子有毛病! 38 t'as perdu la raison!
39. You make me so mad.你气死我了啦。 39 tu me piques la cerise!
40. Drop dead. 去死吧! 40 vas a la merde!
41. **** off. 滚蛋。 41 vas t'en!
42. Don’t give me your ****. 别跟我胡扯。 42 me vantes pas!
43. Don’t give me your excuses/ No more excuses. 别找借口。 43 pas de pretexte!
44. You’re a pain in the ass. 你这讨厌鬼。 44 importun!
45. You’re an asshole. 你这缺德鬼。 45 salaud /salopard/ salope!
46. You bastard!你这杂种! 46 connard!
47. Get over yourself. 别自以为是。 47 n'apprends pas a vieux singe a faire des grimaces!
48. You’re nothing to me. 你对我什么都不是。 48 t'es rien de rien pour moi!
49. It’s not my fault. 不是我的错。 49 c'est pas ma faute!
50. You look guilty. 你看上去心虚。 50 t’as l’air coupable!
51. I can’t help it. 我没办法。 51 j'suis au bout de mes moyens!
52. That’s your problem. 那是你的问题。 52 c'est pas mes affaires!
53. I don’t want to hear it. 我不想听! 53 j'en ai plein mes oreils!
54. Get off my back. 少跟我罗嗦。 54 me fais pas des patatis et patatas!
55. Give me a break. 饶了我吧。 55 laisse moi!
56. Who do you think you’re talking to?你以为你在跟谁说话? 56 sais bien a qui tu parles?
57. Look at this mess!看看这烂摊子! 57 quel bordel!
58. You’re so careless. 你真粗心。 58 negligent!
59. Why on earth didn’t you tell me the truth?你到底为什么不跟我说实话? 59 pq au bout du compte tu m'avais fait
rouler dans la farine?
60. I’m about to explode!我肺都快要气炸了! 60 je vais exploser de colere!
61. What a stupid idiot!真是白痴一个! 61 t'es idiot / impecile!
62. I’m not going to put up with this!我再也受不了啦! 62 je le supporte plus!
63. I never want to see your face again!我再也不要见到你! 63 je veux plus jamais te voir!
64. That’s terrible. 真糟糕! 64 merde!
65. Just look at what you’ve done!看看你都做了些什么! 65 regardes ,qu'est-ce que t'as fait!
66. I wish I had never met you. 我真后悔这辈子遇到你! 66 c'est une honte d'avoir te connu!
67. You’re a disgrace. 你真丢人! 67 c'est une honte!
68. I’ll never forgive you!我永远都不会饶恕你! 68 je t'en veux pour toujours!
69. Don’t nag me!别在我面前唠叨! 69 sois pas la perruche!
70. I’m sick of it. 我都腻了。 70 j'en ai plein!
71. You’re such a *****!你这个婊子!71 salope!
72. Stop screwing/ fooling/ messing around!别鬼混了! 72 gaffes plus!
73. Mind your own business!管好你自己的事! 73 mouches ton nez!/ mele-toi tes affaires!
74. You’re just a good for nothing bum!你真是一个废物!/ 你一无是处! 74 t'es un propre-a-rien!
75. You’ve gone too far!你太过分了! 75 te exiges!/t'es un peu fort!
76. I loathe you!我讨厌你! 76 je te deteste!
77. I detest you!我恨你! 77 je te hais!
78. Get the hell out of here!滚开!78 fous le champ!
79 Don't be that way!别那样! 79 fais pas comme ca!
80. Can’t you do anything right?成事不足,败事有余。 80 tu peux faire quelques B.A?
81. You’re impossible. 你真不可救药。 81 t'es impossible!
82. Don’t touch me!别碰我! 82 me touches pas!
83. Get away from me!离我远一点儿! 83 fous moi le champ!
84. Get out of my life. 我不愿再见到你。/ 从我的生活中消失吧。 84 vas aillieur de ma vie!
85. You’re a joke!你真是一个小丑! 85 t'es une connerie!
86. Don’t give me your attitude. 别跟我摆架子。 86 tiens bon tes grands airs!
87. You’ll be sorry. 你会后悔的。 87 tu en regrettera!
88. We’re through. 我们完了! 88 c’est fini!
89. Look at the mess you’ve made!你搞得一团糟! 89 regardes ce que t’as fait!
90. You’ve ruined everything. 全都让你搞砸了。 90 t’as termine tous!
91. I can’t believe your never. 你好大的胆子! 91 je n’en crois pas mes oreils que tu puisse le faire!
92. You’re away too far. 你太过分了。 92 tu es un peu trop fort!
93. I can’t take you any more!我再也受不了你啦! 93 je te supporte plus!
94. I’m telling you for the last time!我最后再告诉你一次!94 c’est la derniere fois que je te le repete!
95. I could kill you!我宰了你! 95 je vais te tuer!
96. That’s the stupidest thing I’ve ever heard!96 c’est le fait le plus idiot que je n’avais entendu parle.
那是我听到的最愚蠢的事!(比尔.盖茨常用)
97. I can’t believe a word you say. 我才不信你呢!97 j’arrives pas a me mettre tes paroles!
98. You never tell the truth! 你从来就不说实话! 98 tu dis jamais la verite!
99. Don’t push me!别逼我! 99 ne m’exiges pas!
100. Enough is enough!够了够了! 100 j’en ai plein!
101. Don’t waste my time anymore. 别再浪费我的时间了!101 ne gaches plus mon temps!
102. Don’t make so much noise. I’m working. 别吵,我在干活。102 fais pas le bruit, je travailles!
103. It’s unfair. 太不公平了。 103 c’est pas juste!
104. I’m very disappointed. 真让我失望。 104 je suis decu.
105. Don’t panic!别怕!105 n’as pas trouille!
106. What do you think you are doing?你知道你在做什么吗? 106 sais bien ce que tu fais?
107. Don’t you dare come back again!你敢再回来! 107 tu reviendras!
108. You asked for it. 你自找的。 108 c’etais toi qui le demandais.
109. Nonsense!鬼话! 109 betise!

Saturday, September 23, 2006

My Coffee and My love


I am so happy today! It's such a memorible day for both of us! We officially started our relationship as bf & gf! He he, by my word, I meant that I introduced Coffee to my friends as my boyfriend! It's really my first time done so. Felt so exiting and happy!
This lunch time we went to Kingcoo KTV for fun and we had our lunch there. We sang about 3 hours there. Actually we were just henming the love songs to each other and chatting and eating. Not really singing there. We also kissed each other~ wow. He told me I blushed a lot...and I could still feel my heart beating fast...
I later took him to our church. The south cathedral. It's just the time of practice. So I took him there to sing with us. Well actually he can read notes and his voice sounds not bad! That's surprising me, especially when singing the religious songs he felt no difficulty at all! So amazing! There are some of my buddies there like Chito, Edwin, Janet, Jet and Gina there etc., they met Coffee and told me he's a nice guy :-)
Since we just finished the hot time in KTV, our distance was a bit...too close in the basement. Whatever, I don't mind, as long as not too bad, hehe.
I am really touched by his careness to me, even from the very beginning of our relationship, he took care of me a lot! That's really special! He helped me out with quitting smoke. And he made me drink much less than before. He also made me very happy a girl without the sharpness in the eyes. And he also took care of me physically, everytime there's a temperature change he'd first let me know. If I happen to come work late he'd care for what's wrong with me etc.
Oh, back to the line. We had our dinner at the restaurant I went with friends last Sunday. And we happened to know how we started loving each other. He's so smart, he hiden his love well until last Monday when walking together with me, then he showed clearly his love to me. And my love to him was started on Last Monday since after 3 nights no sleep he took care for me so much. Feeling me always to see if I were at fever, or advice me to sleep well every night. etc. Though he's a very tall guy and very handsome to me, but I did not really loving him until these days. I was afraid of this happiness would be short as it's too perfect! But I should believe in him and believe in God. I trust God really entrusted me to him. Let us taking care of each other. This is why we live. We already found each other's beautiness in the soul...
Later I took him to the Mass~ during the Mass he was very concentrated and cute, singing all alone with the choir. Trying to wave his hands of praising God! This is even hard for me! He's even not a catholic!...
But during the Holy Communion he really shocked me a lot! I took him in the line and let him ask for blessing from the priest, he followed my instructions to cross his arms before himself but the priest mistakenly put the body of christ in his mouth! When I realized it I shocked so much. It's my mistake...I tried to apologize to the priest and took his hands and rushed to Fr. John at the back!...
Fr. John's so kind, he told us it's not a big matter if he didn't mean to offend the Lord. He clearly told our relation even before I introduced~ he he. Fr. John's so smart!
Later he sent me home after the Mass. We sat in the KFC from 8:30-10:00 p.m! We could both sit no longer and left for our respective home.
I am so happy and proud of him! He's caring, loving, helpful to others, cute, mature and wonderful! We kids each other like children and we always make each other happy and the best of our lives!
He loves me, and I love him too... Thanks be to God

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

Coffee and Kitten



The life is still as before, working each day and feeling sleepy forever. Well, I found my new favorite. That is Coffee. I used to feel sleepy because I found no meaning of life. But now little by little, I started to be young again!
"When you taste coffee, it's not by it's taste but by your feeling..." He told me so.
Long time ago I used to like coffee by it's bitterness of taste which like my life and make me think of the sweetness of life. I appreciate its taste but not to take too much. Because everything is possible to be addicted to. But right now, I found a sweet kind of coffee! How great is God! Coffee is always a kind of feeling it makes you meditate on your life, coffee is not to taste but to feel...by your heart...
I seldom being taken care of, because I am such a lonely girl, I got used to get alone of myself. But when I am sick and helpless, I thought of finding a shoulder to lean on. Here is the guy I want. To feel and to love...
I am a kitten, a kitten with a tiger's heart. A Kitten...plus a cup of coffee, probably that is what life means...he he, maybe I am writing meaningless right now.
I wish that I could find my coffee partner soon! May God bless!

Saturday, September 16, 2006

Happy Wedding





Today is Duoduo's wedding. I had been working with her since Friday afternoon. Duoduo's so kind a bride, she loads everything on herself during preparation. I also prepared a song of promise for her and a box of chocolate which is a symbol of sweetness of life. I sincerely wishing them having their happy life ever after like a princess and prince married each other.
Duoduo's my good friend and sweet sister. May God bless them!

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

Why Girls are loosing weight?

I am also shedding weight, I know it's such a great challenge for most of girls, well, everyone, including guys. But what made us to torture ourselves so impatiently and restlessly?
Normally people shed weight through the following ways: diet, exercise, medicine, drug, operation or sickness. well, the last one is not optional, he he.
Most girls would say that they would shopping without limitation, none would tell them: sorry, lady, we don't have bigger size for this dress...so embarrassing.
I don't want to be asked if I am pregnant or not anymore...also embarrassing.
I don't want to be heavier than my loved one. Who protect whom?
I don't want to be the fattest in the TV show. Well, if you're just fatter~ it's another thing. 
Because I cannot put on sporty Jacket! Who forced you to wear it?
I just want to proof to everyone that I am not born to be fat!- Yes, you deserved it.
I want to feel more comfortable! - I suggest you get more money, this is better!
I am jealousy! - it's not good lah  
I just want to show myself it's cool! -it's cool?!  
I would know how will I look like if I am slimmer?- stupid!!
For job, for love, or for whatever reason, well, except health. Loosing weight is not really a cool fashion to follow, it's dangerous somewhat. How many people are so much readied as to read all the medical care before taking the operation?
I suggest people don't shed weight so blindly. If you're convinced to do so, please make out a plan and follow well base on your health.

Monday, September 11, 2006

FDA APPROVES SIBUTRAMINE TO TREAT OBESITY

FDA has approved sibutramine (Meridia) for the management of
obesity, a widespread, chronic disease that, combined with other
risk factors contributes to the deaths of an estimated 300,000
Americans each year. Marketing is pending scheduling by the U.S.
Drug Enforcement Administration. The following can be used to
answer questions:
Sibutramine helps reduce food intake and is indicated for
weight loss and maintenance of weight loss when used in
conjunction with a reduced calorie diet. It is indicated for
people whose initial body mass index (BMI) is at least 30 -- that
is, someone who is 5'6" and weighs 185 lbs. or more. Patients
with other risk factors, such as hypertension or diabetes, can be
treated with the drug if their BMI is 27 or higher, for example
someone who is 5'6" and weighs 167 lbs. or more.
Sibutramine works to suppress the appetite primarily by
inhibiting the reuptake of the neurotransmitters norepinephrine
and serotonin. The anti-obesity drug dexfenfluramine also
inhibits the reuptake of serotonin. However, dexfenfluramine,
unlike sibutramine, also causes an increase in release of
serotonin from the nerve cell.
In clinical trials, patients treated with sibutramine while
on a reduced-calorie diet, showed a significant weight loss
during the first six months of treatment, and significant weight
loss was maintained for one year. In one 12-month study, the
average weight loss in patients taking sibutramine, 10 mg daily,
was about 10 lbs., and in those taking 15 mg daily was about 14
lbs. The average weight loss in persons on only a reduced
calorie diet was 3.5 lbs.
The most common side effects associated with sibutramine
include dry mouth, headache, constipation and insomnia. The drug
causes a small increase in average blood pressure, and causes a
higher increase in some patients. FDA recommends patients taking
sibutramine have regular blood pressure evaluations. People with
uncontrolled high blood pressure should not take sibutramine.
No cases of pulmonary hypertension, a rare but serious side
effect associated with the anti-obesity drugs fenfluramine and
dexfenfluramine, have been reported in clinical trials of
sibutramine. Echocardiograms on patients taking sibutramine did
not show more valvular disease than those on placebo.
Sibutramine is manufactured and distributed by Knoll
Pharmaceutical Company, Mount Olive, NJ, under the brand name
Meridia.

Beijing transportation

If you're first time to Beijing, the most impressive thing for you would be its traffic! There's no where like such traffic jam anywhere I went to!
I grown up here in this city and working here, so I would have face to the reality of its terrible traffic every morning! plus my shitty company's fucking policy of a fine for late! In this world you would know how precious money is to you, the shitty company doesn't pay for your traffic no matter you spend 2 yuan for bus, 3 yuan for subway or 40 yuan for taxi, it's just gives fine and never late for fine!
Back to the topic, usually 7:00-9:30am is the traffic peak time, the whole Beijing main road is just like a super big parking yard! It doesn't charge for parking so long fortunately.
Well, set apart of waiting patiently on the bus, there is also a hard part of the process which is to get on the bus. In the morning you could feel Beijing is really indeed a big city with 14,000,000population! almost everyone's on the street! In the bus station, few people really get in line, or they pretend so, when the bus comes, people are rushing unto the bus, not far from the terminal, the bus was already half full, and the booking clerk was shouting:" if it's hard to get on please take the next bus!" Okay, you wait for the next bus to be less crushed into jam. When the last bus comes, you get on and buzz the card. You have to find a safe place for yourself, not close to the door, coz there are thief and more crowded than anywhere else, since everyone tend to be lazy, so they just stand there. You cannot stand in between of the wheels, because it's the narrowest part of a bus, you might be hurt if anyone just want to get through, you cannot also stand tall on the wheel, it might be dangerous also! Shit! with so many people nearby, there's really few places to stand! Well on the bus you would smell the different kind of smell from anywhere of this world. Those cheap perfume's smell feels no better than the salty fish's smell...urg...and I could only stand by window as close as possible, and also careful not to be crushed out of the window, hehe, this is a little extravagant.
It takes about at least one hour on each bus, some stations might be close, usually it takes 2-3 minutes without traffic problem, if there is a traffic jam, it could take up to an hour! and the booking clerk and the driver will not open the door to let you walk on the street for your safety! This is right thought...but sometimes...
Well, if there are any uneducated people on the bus, you... I could only show my sincerest pity on you. Someone spit, someone might smoke (this is no problem, you could even shout at him if anyone dare to do so in public indoor places) someone might don't offer seats for the old and the weak, someone might just speak very much loudly in phone! Or speak loudly with his friends...Despise!
Okay, imagine, everything fine until your own terminal, you have to rush out of the bus in the crowd, to say, please 20 times within half minutes really make you feel tired... so poor of you get off the bus and it's the time to run to your company!
Shit!

Friday, September 08, 2006

Do no evil!

I don't know why do I write this article, but I feel that I should give myself a kind of limitation, everyone should do so right?
I just watched a tv program about London Keleidoscope anti-drug centre, saw those normal ppl there talking about their life before, I moved a lot with the wonderful enviroment there and the great mind of those people. I knew clearer about those hearts and soul. Although in China I also learned alot about drug's effective, but I never consider those people so close to me...I thought them all hiden some where as ghosts and dangerous people, although some of my friends had talked about it before.
Right now I understand that everyone's just the same, it's easy to be addicted to something, like cigarretts, alcohol or drugs, it's just that easy and un resistant. but it's truly there. It make ppl happy and despair, make ppl forgetive to this world, just think of it! like a devil...it kills and ruins...
When there was a beautiful British girl talked about her life before, her family're all drug takers, and she started to take drug while she was 13 years old, she stole before and saw some of her drug friends died of over taking it...
Now everything became normal, those people found their life back by the help of church and medicine methadone. I sincerely wish them have their hopeful lives in the future.
...
Google's demo is Do no evil so here I would claim and suggest all of my dear readers promise yourself never do evil for your own good.
I have a student who recently told me many times to quit smoking...He's my friend besides student, though I always play on him and drive him crazy :-p, hehe but after tonight, I really should seriously thinking of how to quit smoking now, it's really not good! I should admit that first...
Sleeping late is also not good for health. I am absent minded now...
Ok, do no evil! For our own good. Let's talk about this topic some other time when I am clear.