Saturday, October 14, 2006

What is love?

I would question God: what is love? Since dating with my "boyfriend" for quite a while, but I still don't know what is the meaning of love. I ever experienced the feeling of love was just with the only one I loved before...maybe yet still...
We attended a music event this day, and they were all stood before me and met each other...of course, I believe two of them recognized each other by my secret introduction. But my heart told me my boyfriend isn't the one I love!
I was shy to hold his hand before him, and I was shy to look at him when he walks with me...to call them meet each other is this way was my way to let myself really let go of the one I loved, but I am not sure how could this be done successfully, everytime I tend to let something done, it goes the other way!
I am afraid of the relation in this way...but whatever...probably it's good just to let them stay in their respective place and not seeing each other, this would be easier for me to deal with.
I really wish him love me...as my love for him...
Today we took some pictures with my performance white gown. they look like wedding pictures, although boyfriend doesn't like, but he knows what I mean...
I love him...still...
If this is the way of love, let it be...

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Windows XP command line dictionary

Here is all the cmd commands in windows XP! Well it's fairly useful
http://www.microsoft.com/resources/documentation/windows/xp/all/proddocs/en-us/ntcmds.mspx?mfr=true
I was fighting my Debian for a long time~ recently got some small progress, so happy of that!
My C programming lesson is almost finished, don't know when can I compose my own better program since mine is always very funny and messy~~~ crying~~~
But today I am very happy because I tracked back my gmail password! Otherwise I supposed to die of it! I would miss my google blogger!

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

complaints in English/Chinese/French

1. Stop complaining!别发牢骚! 1 rales pas!
2. You make me sick!你真让我恶心! 2 tu me rends mal au coeur!
3. What’s wrong with you?你怎么回事? 3 qu'est-ce que t'as?
4. You shouldn’t have done that!你真不应该那样!4 t'aurais pas du le faire!
5. You’re a jerk!你是个废物/混球! 5 t'es une merde!
6. Don’t talk to me like that!别那样和我说话!6 me hurles pas comme ca!
7. Who do you think you are?你以为你是谁? 7 t'es pas le coussin de roi!
8. What’s your problem?你怎么回事啊? 8 qu'est-ce que t'as?
9. I hate you!我讨厌你! 9 tu me degoutes!
10. I don’t want to see your face!我不愿再见到你! 10 je veux plus jamais te voir!
11. You’re crazy!你疯了!11 t'as perdu la raison!
12. Are you insane/crazy/out of your mind?你疯了吗?(美国人绝对常用!) 12 t'es fou ou quoi?
13. Don’t bother me. 别烦我。 13 fous moi le paix!
14. Knock it off. 少来这一套。 14 m'envoies pas des fleures!
15. Get out of my face. 从我面前消失! 15 vas te faire foutre!
16. Leave me alone. 走开。 16 laisses moi tranquille!
17. Get lost.滚开! 17 vas t'en!
18. Take a hike!哪儿凉快哪儿歇着去吧。 18 va chier ailleur!
19. You piss me off. 你气死我了。 19 tu me piques!
20. It’s none of your business. 关你屁事! 20 ca te regarde pas!
21. What’s the meaning of this?这是什么意思? 21 ca veux dire?
22. How dare you!你敢! 22 oses toi ?!
23. Cut it out. 省省吧。 23 c'est pas la peine!
24. You stupid jerk!你这蠢猪! 24 t'es con /conne!
25. You have a lot of nerve. 脸皮真厚。 25 tu tiens des insults comme gloire!
26. I’m fed up. 我厌倦了。 26 j'en ai par-dessus la tete!
27. I can’t take it anymore. 我受不了了!(李阳老师常用) 27 j'en ai marre!
28. I’ve had enough of your garbage. 我听腻了你的废话。 28 j'en ai assaz ,tes betisent!
29. Shut up!闭嘴! 29 ferme ta boite
30. What do you want?你想怎么样? 30 qu'est-ce que tu veux faire?
31. Do you know what time it is?你知道现在都几点吗?31 vous avez l'heure?
32. What were you thinking?你脑子进水啊? 32 t'as quoi dans la boule?
33. How can you say that?你怎么可以这样说? 33 comment peux-tu le dire?
34. Who says?谁说的? 34 qui le dis?
35. That’s what you think!那才是你脑子里想的! 35 c'est que ce que tu penses!
36. Don’t look at me like that. 别那样看着我。 36 me regardes pas comme ca!
37. What did you say?你说什么? 37 qu'est-ce que t'as dit?
38. You are out of your mind. 你脑子有毛病! 38 t'as perdu la raison!
39. You make me so mad.你气死我了啦。 39 tu me piques la cerise!
40. Drop dead. 去死吧! 40 vas a la merde!
41. **** off. 滚蛋。 41 vas t'en!
42. Don’t give me your ****. 别跟我胡扯。 42 me vantes pas!
43. Don’t give me your excuses/ No more excuses. 别找借口。 43 pas de pretexte!
44. You’re a pain in the ass. 你这讨厌鬼。 44 importun!
45. You’re an asshole. 你这缺德鬼。 45 salaud /salopard/ salope!
46. You bastard!你这杂种! 46 connard!
47. Get over yourself. 别自以为是。 47 n'apprends pas a vieux singe a faire des grimaces!
48. You’re nothing to me. 你对我什么都不是。 48 t'es rien de rien pour moi!
49. It’s not my fault. 不是我的错。 49 c'est pas ma faute!
50. You look guilty. 你看上去心虚。 50 t’as l’air coupable!
51. I can’t help it. 我没办法。 51 j'suis au bout de mes moyens!
52. That’s your problem. 那是你的问题。 52 c'est pas mes affaires!
53. I don’t want to hear it. 我不想听! 53 j'en ai plein mes oreils!
54. Get off my back. 少跟我罗嗦。 54 me fais pas des patatis et patatas!
55. Give me a break. 饶了我吧。 55 laisse moi!
56. Who do you think you’re talking to?你以为你在跟谁说话? 56 sais bien a qui tu parles?
57. Look at this mess!看看这烂摊子! 57 quel bordel!
58. You’re so careless. 你真粗心。 58 negligent!
59. Why on earth didn’t you tell me the truth?你到底为什么不跟我说实话? 59 pq au bout du compte tu m'avais fait
rouler dans la farine?
60. I’m about to explode!我肺都快要气炸了! 60 je vais exploser de colere!
61. What a stupid idiot!真是白痴一个! 61 t'es idiot / impecile!
62. I’m not going to put up with this!我再也受不了啦! 62 je le supporte plus!
63. I never want to see your face again!我再也不要见到你! 63 je veux plus jamais te voir!
64. That’s terrible. 真糟糕! 64 merde!
65. Just look at what you’ve done!看看你都做了些什么! 65 regardes ,qu'est-ce que t'as fait!
66. I wish I had never met you. 我真后悔这辈子遇到你! 66 c'est une honte d'avoir te connu!
67. You’re a disgrace. 你真丢人! 67 c'est une honte!
68. I’ll never forgive you!我永远都不会饶恕你! 68 je t'en veux pour toujours!
69. Don’t nag me!别在我面前唠叨! 69 sois pas la perruche!
70. I’m sick of it. 我都腻了。 70 j'en ai plein!
71. You’re such a *****!你这个婊子!71 salope!
72. Stop screwing/ fooling/ messing around!别鬼混了! 72 gaffes plus!
73. Mind your own business!管好你自己的事! 73 mouches ton nez!/ mele-toi tes affaires!
74. You’re just a good for nothing bum!你真是一个废物!/ 你一无是处! 74 t'es un propre-a-rien!
75. You’ve gone too far!你太过分了! 75 te exiges!/t'es un peu fort!
76. I loathe you!我讨厌你! 76 je te deteste!
77. I detest you!我恨你! 77 je te hais!
78. Get the hell out of here!滚开!78 fous le champ!
79 Don't be that way!别那样! 79 fais pas comme ca!
80. Can’t you do anything right?成事不足,败事有余。 80 tu peux faire quelques B.A?
81. You’re impossible. 你真不可救药。 81 t'es impossible!
82. Don’t touch me!别碰我! 82 me touches pas!
83. Get away from me!离我远一点儿! 83 fous moi le champ!
84. Get out of my life. 我不愿再见到你。/ 从我的生活中消失吧。 84 vas aillieur de ma vie!
85. You’re a joke!你真是一个小丑! 85 t'es une connerie!
86. Don’t give me your attitude. 别跟我摆架子。 86 tiens bon tes grands airs!
87. You’ll be sorry. 你会后悔的。 87 tu en regrettera!
88. We’re through. 我们完了! 88 c’est fini!
89. Look at the mess you’ve made!你搞得一团糟! 89 regardes ce que t’as fait!
90. You’ve ruined everything. 全都让你搞砸了。 90 t’as termine tous!
91. I can’t believe your never. 你好大的胆子! 91 je n’en crois pas mes oreils que tu puisse le faire!
92. You’re away too far. 你太过分了。 92 tu es un peu trop fort!
93. I can’t take you any more!我再也受不了你啦! 93 je te supporte plus!
94. I’m telling you for the last time!我最后再告诉你一次!94 c’est la derniere fois que je te le repete!
95. I could kill you!我宰了你! 95 je vais te tuer!
96. That’s the stupidest thing I’ve ever heard!96 c’est le fait le plus idiot que je n’avais entendu parle.
那是我听到的最愚蠢的事!(比尔.盖茨常用)
97. I can’t believe a word you say. 我才不信你呢!97 j’arrives pas a me mettre tes paroles!
98. You never tell the truth! 你从来就不说实话! 98 tu dis jamais la verite!
99. Don’t push me!别逼我! 99 ne m’exiges pas!
100. Enough is enough!够了够了! 100 j’en ai plein!
101. Don’t waste my time anymore. 别再浪费我的时间了!101 ne gaches plus mon temps!
102. Don’t make so much noise. I’m working. 别吵,我在干活。102 fais pas le bruit, je travailles!
103. It’s unfair. 太不公平了。 103 c’est pas juste!
104. I’m very disappointed. 真让我失望。 104 je suis decu.
105. Don’t panic!别怕!105 n’as pas trouille!
106. What do you think you are doing?你知道你在做什么吗? 106 sais bien ce que tu fais?
107. Don’t you dare come back again!你敢再回来! 107 tu reviendras!
108. You asked for it. 你自找的。 108 c’etais toi qui le demandais.
109. Nonsense!鬼话! 109 betise!

Saturday, September 23, 2006

My Coffee and My love


I am so happy today! It's such a memorible day for both of us! We officially started our relationship as bf & gf! He he, by my word, I meant that I introduced Coffee to my friends as my boyfriend! It's really my first time done so. Felt so exiting and happy!
This lunch time we went to Kingcoo KTV for fun and we had our lunch there. We sang about 3 hours there. Actually we were just henming the love songs to each other and chatting and eating. Not really singing there. We also kissed each other~ wow. He told me I blushed a lot...and I could still feel my heart beating fast...
I later took him to our church. The south cathedral. It's just the time of practice. So I took him there to sing with us. Well actually he can read notes and his voice sounds not bad! That's surprising me, especially when singing the religious songs he felt no difficulty at all! So amazing! There are some of my buddies there like Chito, Edwin, Janet, Jet and Gina there etc., they met Coffee and told me he's a nice guy :-)
Since we just finished the hot time in KTV, our distance was a bit...too close in the basement. Whatever, I don't mind, as long as not too bad, hehe.
I am really touched by his careness to me, even from the very beginning of our relationship, he took care of me a lot! That's really special! He helped me out with quitting smoke. And he made me drink much less than before. He also made me very happy a girl without the sharpness in the eyes. And he also took care of me physically, everytime there's a temperature change he'd first let me know. If I happen to come work late he'd care for what's wrong with me etc.
Oh, back to the line. We had our dinner at the restaurant I went with friends last Sunday. And we happened to know how we started loving each other. He's so smart, he hiden his love well until last Monday when walking together with me, then he showed clearly his love to me. And my love to him was started on Last Monday since after 3 nights no sleep he took care for me so much. Feeling me always to see if I were at fever, or advice me to sleep well every night. etc. Though he's a very tall guy and very handsome to me, but I did not really loving him until these days. I was afraid of this happiness would be short as it's too perfect! But I should believe in him and believe in God. I trust God really entrusted me to him. Let us taking care of each other. This is why we live. We already found each other's beautiness in the soul...
Later I took him to the Mass~ during the Mass he was very concentrated and cute, singing all alone with the choir. Trying to wave his hands of praising God! This is even hard for me! He's even not a catholic!...
But during the Holy Communion he really shocked me a lot! I took him in the line and let him ask for blessing from the priest, he followed my instructions to cross his arms before himself but the priest mistakenly put the body of christ in his mouth! When I realized it I shocked so much. It's my mistake...I tried to apologize to the priest and took his hands and rushed to Fr. John at the back!...
Fr. John's so kind, he told us it's not a big matter if he didn't mean to offend the Lord. He clearly told our relation even before I introduced~ he he. Fr. John's so smart!
Later he sent me home after the Mass. We sat in the KFC from 8:30-10:00 p.m! We could both sit no longer and left for our respective home.
I am so happy and proud of him! He's caring, loving, helpful to others, cute, mature and wonderful! We kids each other like children and we always make each other happy and the best of our lives!
He loves me, and I love him too... Thanks be to God

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

Coffee and Kitten



The life is still as before, working each day and feeling sleepy forever. Well, I found my new favorite. That is Coffee. I used to feel sleepy because I found no meaning of life. But now little by little, I started to be young again!
"When you taste coffee, it's not by it's taste but by your feeling..." He told me so.
Long time ago I used to like coffee by it's bitterness of taste which like my life and make me think of the sweetness of life. I appreciate its taste but not to take too much. Because everything is possible to be addicted to. But right now, I found a sweet kind of coffee! How great is God! Coffee is always a kind of feeling it makes you meditate on your life, coffee is not to taste but to feel...by your heart...
I seldom being taken care of, because I am such a lonely girl, I got used to get alone of myself. But when I am sick and helpless, I thought of finding a shoulder to lean on. Here is the guy I want. To feel and to love...
I am a kitten, a kitten with a tiger's heart. A Kitten...plus a cup of coffee, probably that is what life means...he he, maybe I am writing meaningless right now.
I wish that I could find my coffee partner soon! May God bless!

Saturday, September 16, 2006

Happy Wedding





Today is Duoduo's wedding. I had been working with her since Friday afternoon. Duoduo's so kind a bride, she loads everything on herself during preparation. I also prepared a song of promise for her and a box of chocolate which is a symbol of sweetness of life. I sincerely wishing them having their happy life ever after like a princess and prince married each other.
Duoduo's my good friend and sweet sister. May God bless them!

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

Why Girls are loosing weight?

I am also shedding weight, I know it's such a great challenge for most of girls, well, everyone, including guys. But what made us to torture ourselves so impatiently and restlessly?
Normally people shed weight through the following ways: diet, exercise, medicine, drug, operation or sickness. well, the last one is not optional, he he.
Most girls would say that they would shopping without limitation, none would tell them: sorry, lady, we don't have bigger size for this dress...so embarrassing.
I don't want to be asked if I am pregnant or not anymore...also embarrassing.
I don't want to be heavier than my loved one. Who protect whom?
I don't want to be the fattest in the TV show. Well, if you're just fatter~ it's another thing. 
Because I cannot put on sporty Jacket! Who forced you to wear it?
I just want to proof to everyone that I am not born to be fat!- Yes, you deserved it.
I want to feel more comfortable! - I suggest you get more money, this is better!
I am jealousy! - it's not good lah  
I just want to show myself it's cool! -it's cool?!  
I would know how will I look like if I am slimmer?- stupid!!
For job, for love, or for whatever reason, well, except health. Loosing weight is not really a cool fashion to follow, it's dangerous somewhat. How many people are so much readied as to read all the medical care before taking the operation?
I suggest people don't shed weight so blindly. If you're convinced to do so, please make out a plan and follow well base on your health.

Monday, September 11, 2006

FDA APPROVES SIBUTRAMINE TO TREAT OBESITY

FDA has approved sibutramine (Meridia) for the management of
obesity, a widespread, chronic disease that, combined with other
risk factors contributes to the deaths of an estimated 300,000
Americans each year. Marketing is pending scheduling by the U.S.
Drug Enforcement Administration. The following can be used to
answer questions:
Sibutramine helps reduce food intake and is indicated for
weight loss and maintenance of weight loss when used in
conjunction with a reduced calorie diet. It is indicated for
people whose initial body mass index (BMI) is at least 30 -- that
is, someone who is 5'6" and weighs 185 lbs. or more. Patients
with other risk factors, such as hypertension or diabetes, can be
treated with the drug if their BMI is 27 or higher, for example
someone who is 5'6" and weighs 167 lbs. or more.
Sibutramine works to suppress the appetite primarily by
inhibiting the reuptake of the neurotransmitters norepinephrine
and serotonin. The anti-obesity drug dexfenfluramine also
inhibits the reuptake of serotonin. However, dexfenfluramine,
unlike sibutramine, also causes an increase in release of
serotonin from the nerve cell.
In clinical trials, patients treated with sibutramine while
on a reduced-calorie diet, showed a significant weight loss
during the first six months of treatment, and significant weight
loss was maintained for one year. In one 12-month study, the
average weight loss in patients taking sibutramine, 10 mg daily,
was about 10 lbs., and in those taking 15 mg daily was about 14
lbs. The average weight loss in persons on only a reduced
calorie diet was 3.5 lbs.
The most common side effects associated with sibutramine
include dry mouth, headache, constipation and insomnia. The drug
causes a small increase in average blood pressure, and causes a
higher increase in some patients. FDA recommends patients taking
sibutramine have regular blood pressure evaluations. People with
uncontrolled high blood pressure should not take sibutramine.
No cases of pulmonary hypertension, a rare but serious side
effect associated with the anti-obesity drugs fenfluramine and
dexfenfluramine, have been reported in clinical trials of
sibutramine. Echocardiograms on patients taking sibutramine did
not show more valvular disease than those on placebo.
Sibutramine is manufactured and distributed by Knoll
Pharmaceutical Company, Mount Olive, NJ, under the brand name
Meridia.

Beijing transportation

If you're first time to Beijing, the most impressive thing for you would be its traffic! There's no where like such traffic jam anywhere I went to!
I grown up here in this city and working here, so I would have face to the reality of its terrible traffic every morning! plus my shitty company's fucking policy of a fine for late! In this world you would know how precious money is to you, the shitty company doesn't pay for your traffic no matter you spend 2 yuan for bus, 3 yuan for subway or 40 yuan for taxi, it's just gives fine and never late for fine!
Back to the topic, usually 7:00-9:30am is the traffic peak time, the whole Beijing main road is just like a super big parking yard! It doesn't charge for parking so long fortunately.
Well, set apart of waiting patiently on the bus, there is also a hard part of the process which is to get on the bus. In the morning you could feel Beijing is really indeed a big city with 14,000,000population! almost everyone's on the street! In the bus station, few people really get in line, or they pretend so, when the bus comes, people are rushing unto the bus, not far from the terminal, the bus was already half full, and the booking clerk was shouting:" if it's hard to get on please take the next bus!" Okay, you wait for the next bus to be less crushed into jam. When the last bus comes, you get on and buzz the card. You have to find a safe place for yourself, not close to the door, coz there are thief and more crowded than anywhere else, since everyone tend to be lazy, so they just stand there. You cannot stand in between of the wheels, because it's the narrowest part of a bus, you might be hurt if anyone just want to get through, you cannot also stand tall on the wheel, it might be dangerous also! Shit! with so many people nearby, there's really few places to stand! Well on the bus you would smell the different kind of smell from anywhere of this world. Those cheap perfume's smell feels no better than the salty fish's smell...urg...and I could only stand by window as close as possible, and also careful not to be crushed out of the window, hehe, this is a little extravagant.
It takes about at least one hour on each bus, some stations might be close, usually it takes 2-3 minutes without traffic problem, if there is a traffic jam, it could take up to an hour! and the booking clerk and the driver will not open the door to let you walk on the street for your safety! This is right thought...but sometimes...
Well, if there are any uneducated people on the bus, you... I could only show my sincerest pity on you. Someone spit, someone might smoke (this is no problem, you could even shout at him if anyone dare to do so in public indoor places) someone might don't offer seats for the old and the weak, someone might just speak very much loudly in phone! Or speak loudly with his friends...Despise!
Okay, imagine, everything fine until your own terminal, you have to rush out of the bus in the crowd, to say, please 20 times within half minutes really make you feel tired... so poor of you get off the bus and it's the time to run to your company!
Shit!

Friday, September 08, 2006

Do no evil!

I don't know why do I write this article, but I feel that I should give myself a kind of limitation, everyone should do so right?
I just watched a tv program about London Keleidoscope anti-drug centre, saw those normal ppl there talking about their life before, I moved a lot with the wonderful enviroment there and the great mind of those people. I knew clearer about those hearts and soul. Although in China I also learned alot about drug's effective, but I never consider those people so close to me...I thought them all hiden some where as ghosts and dangerous people, although some of my friends had talked about it before.
Right now I understand that everyone's just the same, it's easy to be addicted to something, like cigarretts, alcohol or drugs, it's just that easy and un resistant. but it's truly there. It make ppl happy and despair, make ppl forgetive to this world, just think of it! like a devil...it kills and ruins...
When there was a beautiful British girl talked about her life before, her family're all drug takers, and she started to take drug while she was 13 years old, she stole before and saw some of her drug friends died of over taking it...
Now everything became normal, those people found their life back by the help of church and medicine methadone. I sincerely wish them have their hopeful lives in the future.
...
Google's demo is Do no evil so here I would claim and suggest all of my dear readers promise yourself never do evil for your own good.
I have a student who recently told me many times to quit smoking...He's my friend besides student, though I always play on him and drive him crazy :-p, hehe but after tonight, I really should seriously thinking of how to quit smoking now, it's really not good! I should admit that first...
Sleeping late is also not good for health. I am absent minded now...
Ok, do no evil! For our own good. Let's talk about this topic some other time when I am clear.

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

Happy Birthday Malcolm



Today is Malcolm's birthday!
I sent you a E-card this early morning, and miraculously you picked it up just after the time I sent it! Why didn't you sleep that time? Are you just as busy as before?
A year had passed without anyone's notice, I still remember the words I composed to you for your last birthday. Now it comes the other one.
Time is passing but fortunately the people and place are still the same.
I sincerely wish you a happy birthday! May God bless you and our friendship would last forever!

A miserable day for me!

It's such a special day for me! From the very morning 12am got a hit to bleed of no reason, to the very evening as right now, 8pm still in the office...Everything seems to be normal but when puzzle them together~ it became such a terrible day!
I don't know why am I sitting here besides composing this blog. I feel so tired. But fortunately tomorrow is Thursday. Friday I would be resting!
Hand's still hurt, actually the scar isn't big but it made my heart pains. I don't know why he hit so harshly just because by 12:00am I didn't sleep...no smoking, no drinking...just sitting there to edit my website silently, coz I would like to send the first birthday card to a friend, that's my special habit. I was not even talking through IM! I am so confused by his strange action and now refuse to go home!
But whatever, I had to go home even though. I don't want to sleep in the office, since I either don't like here that much, hehe.
Anyway, Everything will be fine! Maybe tonight I could sleep earlier? Sure...my skin becomes rough by the computer radiation everyday 12hours in my 20s! This is life everyday. I started complaining again...better to stop writing, or I would say life and death matter again~ I believe this isn't an interesting topic for most.
At least I had a grace from God who granted me a student, who probably would help me better on my financial risk.
The company...had postponed the payday again, last time they said was the only time! Now made all of us feel so tight!Why I always try to think the good of him? Just unfairly because I am a Christian? I sincerely wish he would be as good as I thought!

Friday, September 01, 2006

Blogspot restarted

Hello, everyone, I am so glad to come back to blogspot today.
Whatever, I always think this site's the most beautiful one that I'd ever had! Haha!
I love it, please keep visiting me:-)
But I still have a problem on Google Video posting, so right now I am still using mofile video, which is a Chinese version, that'd be a little hard for foreign friends to log on...if you know how to deal with the video blog of google please do inform me via E-mail. Thank you lah.
I am going for wise teeth pull off later this morning, so please do pray for me if you read this message. I will post my thoughts and feel later.

Monday, August 14, 2006

Going to Beihai with my Daddy

This morning my daddy and I went to Beihai park altogether. We had a great time there.
There are lots of activities in Beihai for the old, very interesting. Some playing guitar, some playing traditional instruments, and some playing sports.
We also went to many of the temples inside of beihai, beihai was a temple before so there're lots of Budhist temples. you may view my yahoo photo album for details.
About lunch time we finished our beihai tour, then we went to the Houhai bar street. We had great time there watching the pure Beijing scenery. My daddy complains about too many low educated immigrant workers now in Beijing, made beijing so dirty and low. Anyway, it's already like that, they already are the primary population of Beijing.We could just try our best to be good, as good as the old beijingers.
After the bar street tour, we went back home.

Sunday, August 13, 2006

Retreat at Teresa's Farmland

It's been 3 years I haven't been to Teresa's farmland, the God Grace Garden, 3G in this name means the Trinity. everything's so meaningful to her.
We planed to leave by 7:30am from the South Cathedral, but since somebody were late so we at last left by 9am! But everything was fine on the way, we arrived by 10:30am.
After we arrived we started our activity, we firstly introduced ourselves, I was the translator and the guitar player. all of us enjoyed so much of the activity. I even translated the songs into Chinese version! Haha!
After few talks it comes the lunch time. after lunch was 3 talks again, when I feel tired, I give floor to Kevin, to let him help me on translation. He's so kind lah!
About 5:30pm, we started our game time, the first one was blind folded team game led by the leader to overcome some obstarcles, and the second & third game were about passing balloon games. The fourth game was the hardest and the most interesting one, heaven and earth, we have to group by team to pass the rings, no touching the rings, otherwise the whole group will play it all over again, it's quite hard, and we tried our best to do it, by helping each other and great team work spirit, we hold each other to the other side, or some brothers offered their back for others to step on through.
The session was wonderful. After playing the games we started our barbeque dinner. I drunk a bottle of wine coz my tablets made me don't want to eat anything. but I was wrong because of the wrong place drinking:-p, although I will never get drunk in few bottles, but it's not the right place to drink alcohol.
Later came the time of performance. I was also translating, and I sang a song with my guitar, some people danced. Later there was the last game, Christ's light. we had to protect our candle's light from some people that intended to blow it off. If it's off we had to enlighten it again from the main candle. I was cheating, haha, because I had a lighter:-p
Then the first day was finished, we came to the next day.
On the next day we also started with 3talks, by Gary, Kevin and Erik. I was translating for Gary and Erik...Gary's semi Chinese~English talk made me almost crazy...haha, but it's quite interesting an experience:-p Kevin talked great about faithfulness and order-would be a hard topic for me-then was the time we committ to the Lord, we drawed our feet onto a color paper, and wrote on it our committment, cut it and post it onto the board shaped like a mountain. We loved it so much. Later...I got alot of love notes! Oh, I mean the note of appreciation. I was so moved by their lovliness. At last was the picture time and lunch time. Later we finished completely.
On the bus, Onell reminded me the birthday of Fr.John...I was so bad, I almost forgot his birthday! How could be?! He's my best priest friend!
I drawed a card for him on the way, for everybody to sign on it. I love the card, because I thought it's quite beautiful!
Later we came to the south cathedral and we started our Mass, I read the first reading and the Psalm. Maiya read the second reading, we all came onto the altar coz we're few, and I played guitar during the Mass-I found it's almost impossible to play guitar without amplifyer in the church, sound goes slowly-but everything was fine! We had our holy communion of bread and wine!
I enjoyed so much of the Mass and at last we celebrated birthday for Fr.John with a cake in the church yard.

Thursday, August 10, 2006

New life without him!

I decide to quit my love to him, it's a big decision, I can't hold it on anymore, it's such a boring thing to love him so much for one year. I've had enough of it!
It's his fault never had told me that he had a gf, it's his fault never told me he doesn't like me at all, it's also his fault to let me be...so that's why I had wasted one year on him...
It's not only his fault of course, because I am so passionate, none could ever stop my mind. So I was loving him with my whole heart and soul, I could not blame him, coz he'd been my friend and cared for me...
woofs...my soul's free
Sure that I already quited the love, sure that I already forgot. I will give him more space of mind in his life...
Staying in the English Choir was all because of him, otherwise I left long before...but right now I...should I leave? I still like there...okay, just give myself few weeks to recover from my throat problem, later I will decide whether to leave.
I can't speak always...I lost my voice twice already. And I had serious tratheitis in the past. And I love singing that much!I should really have taken care of myself, quit smoking soon, or at least smoke much less than before. I also should be happy so that I could do my new program well,being a trainer that I must speak up! I love this program, and I believe that I could have done it! For sure!
This love is probably the longest love of my life, I will never love anyone more than him, but I will quit, because I loved. Love is such a poison, it kills and gives pain, but people would rather take it to get rid of this messy deadly world...I will get strong of myself to work on my dream!
Forget me, I will leave you alone.
---I will forget you! Forget what you had done to hurt me and what you'd done to let me cry!

At last it's began

I started my work today! the training program had been prepared for ages, now it's began! I am so happy!
This morning was the prep-talk, although there'd been some technical problems, but I solved it well:-P
Tomorrow will be the first lesson, next week will be fully started! It's Great!

Thursday, July 06, 2006

Missing Beijing

I want to go home! I don't like Kunshan!

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

Wishing for a better day tomorrow

Life in here sometimes changes, I just got an invitation from my colleague Gary, he invites me to go for KTV tomorrow night, wonderful! Tonight I will be drinking with Cuima, Wonderful! I could only drink and smoke to spend my leisure time, singing is a great chance for me to relax! I love it! Thanks God for answering my prayers. I will try not to harden my heart in prayer. Listening to the words of God!
I will try to enjoy life here, although it's prison like...
rest well Berna...

Boring life in Kunshan

Where there is solitude, there is Bernadette...
This is my comment of Kunshan, Solitude, Prison, Toy, Dispare. I don't like here, I want to go home, really, why should I keep staying here doing nothing...though still working but don't feel like living... Oh my life...
I want to go home, to see my daddy everyday, to hug my friends, to talk to them, to hold my cat and to kiss him...I love Beijing...
I am really boring here...Where should I go to enjoy except travel alone all the time? I love travel but here I can only travel, this is different...
I admire those people live in cities, I admire those people quarreling with there brothers and sisters...I love my life before...
Who can free me from my solitude here...I need a love here or a true friend...God please give me one...
I even would like to get married recently...see how lonely I am...not because of sex or money, but only a person to waite at home...a home to rest...a place to go after work...or please let me home...to beijing...

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

Garbage Suzhou

Today I got a phone call...really disgusting~ I bought a DC on Saturday, she promised to give me a tri-pot for free, then she forgot it, I forgot also...so she has to mail me right? Today the currier company called me, said that the tri-pot is here already, but they will charge me 40yuan for currier! F~ It's not my fault...why should I pay for it!? It's the other reason I hate suzhou! This city never give me a good impression! I have to go to the other village to pick up a package, have to go very far to buy anything, have to pay unknown extra for mobile fare! FFFFFFF! What a place! Even worse than the worst place I went to! Forgive me to use so many F in this article, to always pay unknown extra and being considered as a rich lady when you're really poor is really disgusting! I can't live here anymore, wish I would feel better of here, probably I am not going to Suzhou anymore, probably I am not going to travel so much in the future, just dreaming of beijing everyday...I love beijing and I miss there....God please let me home...I hate here!

My new toys

These days I've been very happy indeed, because of my new toys! My super slim mobile phone and the 7million pixels DC. I love them so much, keep shoting pictures and play mobile games, haha.

I want to get married...Everyone around me is married or going to marry. Only me is so much available, not having even a boyfriend...so poor...

This morning I woke up later, wish I will wake up earlier in the future few days of this week.

Monday, July 03, 2006

Suzhou and Shanghai Weekend

This weekend I went to Suzhou and Shanghai, Suzhou Sat and Shanghai Sunday. I arrived in Suzhou early in the morning. 7:40am.

At first I planed to visit some famous sites like the garden or the temples, but since I was taking a bus, I didn't know where's the bus station so I had to take a taxi, the taxi driver is a motor driver, coz nearby zhuozhengyuan, the road is being bended, so I had to take the motor cycle. But after I got onto the bicycle he tried to persuade me to go to Dingyuan instead of Zhuozhengyuan. Coz my colleagues went there before, and told me it's really not interesting, so I decided to try a new park. We got there 20minutes later since he's not really familiar with the road.

I recognized he took a parking ticket from my ticket set, I immediately knew it's for commition, but since he drove so fast, then I didn't say anything. He got at least 20yuan from each passenger he bring.

I went into the garden. There is a tour guide let us to waite inthe parlour. We chated for a while. Later the tour began. It's really not bad a garden. I even saw the tomb of Liubowen. the garden covers 130 mu2. Quite big a garden. I could sit on the boat to see the sites around. I bought 2 folded fans, 25yuan each~

Later the tour guide brought me to the flower temple, the taoist temple, they taught us how to worship, I was saying the Lord's prayer while learning their guesture. Later he told us to draw a piece of bamboo to tell our fortune. I drawed one. He told me I am everything fine except love life...Yeah, he's true. And he said my husband is not from the same place as me...He also asked if there's anyone I love, to test if we are fit, then I told him there's a boy, after his testing, he said I am fire life, he is water. So we're not fit...I knew we are not even if he don't say it...Whatever...I didn't ask for solve after it, I know I am a catholic, I should practice my faith of not believing in other gods.

Later I went to drink some tea, listen to the Suzhou opera, and I left there.

I planed to visit Hanshan Temple, coz it's not far, then I hired a tri-cycle to take me there.I found the driver's bad also. He took me to a very expensive market, I knew he was gonna take commision from me, then I didn't buy anything. So later we started out for Hanshan temple. The driver started to show his bad parts, he intended to invite me for dinner, for travel, for everything, he said he would pay for it. Shit! Everyone konw what's he meant. So I got down from the bike and ran to a taxi. He was grabing my hand and arm, intended to touch me. I shouted at him in pure Beijing accent bad words, and he gave up forcing me. It's very dangerous an experience. I would never go to suzhou alone.

I arrived hanshan temple afterward. It's not a big temple, even could be called small. I saw a lot of Japanese tourists there. I was just wandering alone boringly. I had a vegi-lunch there, it's very delicious and cheap. The nuddle is only 5yuan. I enjoyed a lot.

Later I wandered again in the temple, I nocked the bell there. 5yuan for 3times. The sound is very fine. I forgot to record it...so poor...

Later I came out of the temple and tried to go to the water town of Suzhou. Since it's the first time I got there, I didn't know how to go so I just walking on the street. Later I found a digital plaza nearby, so I went there and got a digital camera. Olympus mju:700. 710million pixels. Everything great! 2500yuan!

After shopping it started raining, I could only take the bus and go back to Kunshan, but see how crazy I was: I went to Shanghai instead of Kunshan in the heavy rain!

I got on the train and texted Christl, to inform her that I would be staying in her place that night.

After arrived there I got some dinner for two of us, and went to her home.

We talked a lot about her recent life since her ideal man was going to marry another girl soon... I consider it's a lucky thing for her since she didn't loose too much time on her crush and she'll have more opportunities in the future.

I kept chatting with Grace through MSN until 3am. And I went to sleep late.

The next morning I had to go for Mass so I woke up at 7am. Feeling dizzy and uncomfortable. We went to the Xujiahui Church. We missed the early Mass so we had to take our breakfast and wait for the other Mass 10 o'clock. We went to KFC to have breakfast, I got my favorite Congee "Century egg and meat Congee" and a shrimp roll. So happy!

Later we went back to the church to take our Mass. After the Mass we went to the Pacific digital building to buy my mobile. I didn't see my planed one but got a better super slim mobile. NEC-N923.

Later we went for lunch in the building and after lunch I got the train back to Kunshan.

After got home I started practicing my picture taking skill and enjoyed alot!

In the evening I watched the TV serias, the Lady's mother died in a accident...I thought of my mum, and sadly went to sleep with tears in my eyes...

Fortunately I was blessed by my mum in heaven, I had a nice dream! Wish my dady's happy too in Beijing! I love two of you. May God bless our family!

Monday, June 26, 2006

I was drunk

Saturday the whole day I was shopping with my colleagues, we got lots of things for hot pot cooking, the whole day's fine, except there was a rainy evening.
Later we went to Gary's place, we ate, drank, smoke from 7pm-3am, haha, it's really a long time. I didn't know what happened, I was very happy that night, maybe got to see a long time no see friend from Beijing or probably because of one week no food~ So I ate a lot, also drank a lot, smoked a lot...
At about 3am, we would had ice-cream time, but unfortunately I vomited badly, maybe just because of one week no eatting at all, so my stomach could not hold on anymore, plus the whole pack of cigarretts and about 5 bottles of beer...oh mine. I was really tourturing myself.
I felt very bad the whole night, coz it's the first time I got drunk, even before I drank more I wound't feel so bad. anyway. after Sunday the whole afternoon rest, I felt better of my stomach and headache's gone.
I tried to apologize to Gary on Sunday afternoon, he pardoned me for that, coz he gets drunk often:-) So he would understand me.
I could understand him now, actually after I came here, there's a weird lonelyness inside of my heart, of no friend, no hug and no love here, only colleagues and work, it's really unhealthy sometimes. So we tend to use cigarretts and alcohole to get ourselves unconscious.
I will take care of myself in the future, no more drinking so much, if cut off beer completely seems to be difficult to me, at least I could cut it down as 2bottles a week. right? Hehe.
Please pray for me.

Friday, June 23, 2006

Hamster's kill

This morning I saw a very bloody scene, I wish I would forgot it~ One of my hamster ate the other~ Rongrong ate Maomao~ I saw one chewing the other's head, making very nusty sound~ I could no longer hold the cage, I asked my roomate to help me to hold it~ carrying it outside and put it nearby my office building, later I asked Mr.Cui to help me with releasing two of them. Later Mr.Cui and Zhou came together with me and did it. We put two of them on the grass and went away. I know what's mean of doing this, there're lots of cats nearby, although they'll escape the day but night time I am not sure if they'll be safe.
I feel like vomit, washed the cage and went back office, because I feel myself more a girl than before, I could manage to be afraid of death~
But it's not a time to consider myself, full of my mind is our relation~ should I let go of Malcolm? Are we matching each other? If I continue to be keeping this relation, what will happen, though I know he is not maomao, though I know I am not a hamster, but still feel very much afraid of our future ahead...
If he doesn't like me, just let him go...for both of our good.

Monday, June 19, 2006

New beautiful Berna

I made up my mind to shed weight last thursday night and tried 4days of my shedding weight plan, it's really working and very healthy to me. I will keep on doing so!

I will cut off beer, forever! So later if you see me drinking beer please just feel free to ask money from me for Fine, one gulp 100yuan! I already kept 4days no drinking at all. I am also eating less, because I cannot exercise at my phase~ too much muscles, so if I run or do any exercise it's just for muscle development~ at most hiking for me.

I lost 5kg in 4 days by this method, I will keep on doing so with more carings for my body:-D

I believe a slim bernadette would be very beautiful. For sure! Shedding weight for health, for work, and for beauty

2nd time to Shanghai

On the evening of Friday I went to Shanghai by train, my roomate Sally also would like to accompany me, so we went together. After we arrived the train station, we found there're alot of people~we bought our return ticket. When we found the train depart time is so late, we would love to stay in a restaurant to wait for the train. We happened to meet a person on our same table, he is also working in Kunshan, base on software programming, so we talked a little bit, he also introduced to us his this and that, hehe. Maybe he's interested in Sally since that day she wore very beautiful:-D

About 8pm, we got back to the train station, fortunately this time the train hasn't late, so we got onto it smoothly. There're many people on the train, it was hard for us to get our seats, there are 3 layers of one train, our seats is writen on the top layer, but we found it in the middle~ Don't know what kind of ticket they printed, hehe, anyway we had our seats, many people there standing.

We reached the Shanghai station half an hour later, I had to accompany Sally to waite for her friend, since she's so dependent~I am also responsible and caring for whoever with me. Unfortunately the person's super stupid, he wasn't able to find the subway exit I mentioned, had to explain to him many times on the phone, wasted lots of money for travel service! Oh mine, whatever, 40minutes later we found him! I was very angry for wasting my time so stupidly, I handed Sally to him and immediately turned back to my subway entrance, and politely said a bye bye, the only word I spoke to him, he just said a bye~what kind of person he is! Because of that day I was a bit angry, so I didn't really considered well Sally's safety with him, he looked like very weired a person~I should had arranged a hotel for her~but fortunately she is fine at last.

I went to see Christl later, got to her place about 10pm. After a short talk we slept.

The next morning we woke up about 9:00am, we went to the Huaihai Rd., since I came to Shanghai very roughly, though staying for 3months, but I didn't take my cosmatics with me, so I had to find a Sasa to buy my cosmetics to cover my work need. after shopping we continued stepping on the most beautiful road of Shanghai. I love it very much, we went to visit Suen Yatsen's place, it's very attractive to me, and it's my aim this time. We found it without too much effort. We had to wait for the tour guide finish one group. In our group, there're 2 Shanghai students, 4 Singaporean travellers, and 2 of us, we changed on our shoe spats for the clean of the house, but it seemed to be wored by hundreds of people, though it's looked clean~ anyway, tolerate since I love this president of China.

Later we went to the most famous Shanghai nuddle restaurant, it's widely spread throughout hong kong travel books, so I went there to try if it's good~ the shop only opens 1hour before, now it's almost 3hours a day. 1hour in the morning, and 2hour for lunch time, it's not far from Suen yatsen's place. We waited for almost an hour for the seat and cooking, within my imagination, here's really a lot of Hong Kongers customers, on my table there's also two singaporeans, why there're so many singaporeans in Shanghai? Don't know~honesty speaking, the nuddle is not that good as it mentioned on the book~quite normal~

After our lunch, we continued our shopping travel, we went to the most luxurious shopping mall Paris Spring, at first we made our mind only to go for window shopping, but after we arrived, we both bought something for souvenirs, hehe, since the receipts has Paris Spring's logo~ I bought for this reason lah, I went to the super market in the basement of this mall, it's very expensive inside that mall, my sliced bread costs 7yuan~normally could be 5yuan at most in Beijing foreign store, anyway, since I need food back in Kunshan, so whatever. I also bought some Natto, the Natto's cheaper than Beijing's, and the Kimchi, I've been missing Kimchi the whole week in Kunshan, at last I got some~happy~

Later we went to Nanjing road again, I went there the first time in Shanghai, this time's mainly for cloth shopping, I didn't bring many cloths to kunshan, so have to purchase some from shanghai, Kunshan's cloth are super expensive, almost nothing under 100yuan! I got some pants from Nanjing Rd. and some other things I forgot.

Later we went to the bund, I love the bund at night very much! We had our talk for about 2hours about whatever interesting or hindering~ Just for relax~ Later we went back home.

Because Christl had a headache so she slept early, I logged on my MSN to see if there's any buddy there, I saw Gary my colleague, he gave me a very interesting page to play with. I just realized his typing speed was super slow~ he told me he hurt his arm last night for just sleeping by one side~ surprising~hurt by sleeping in a bad position. But he said we'd have a KTV the next night, so I was very happy! wishing him rest well and happily logged off.

The Sunday morning, I made up my mind to go to the biggest cathedral in Shanghai, the Xujiahui Cathedral, we are there at about 8am! So early of us, but we found the Mass's celebrated in Shanghai accent, so I didn't understand anything, since their choir is okay, at least I had something to enjoy of. hehe. Later we took our pictures there, and I also grabbed the priest there to take a picutre with us. I also got the introduction of that cathedral. We departed after the Mass, because I would like to go shopping again for my future food, so Christl went home.

But after I arrived the subway I changed my mind to go for Lu Xun's home, it's quite far away from the centre, so I had to give up my mind to shop for eat. I arrived there on about 10:20am, it's really far, the train took about 40minutes, but it's worthy at least. I met a kind person to take me to the house of Luxun, if not by his help I would never find it by myself smoothly, it's very hard to find. Luxun's place is very simple, he had a son after he's 40s, so he treasured the son very much, gave him the best room of the house, the house has 3 floors, and it's very neat and clean. I could feel Lu xun's spirit there in the house.

Later I visited the Nei shan book store which was belonged to the best friend of Lu xun, it's occupied by ICBC already, but on the second floor there's still the memorials for the store. unfortuantely the day's sunday, I wasn't able to get in, it's open only from Monday to Friday~

Later I visited the tomb of Lu Xun, it's also very simple, of course it's big, but it's not luxious at all. I bowed there and took a picture before his statues~

Later I kept walking to non-where because I still have sometime for free walk, I saw there's a big supermarket just nearby the subway station, I had 1hour left for shopping, I bought a lot of food to eat~ it's so nice of God! Because I bought two rats on the way to the supermarket, and they're not storable in the supermarket, so I took them with me for shopping, haha, it's the first time I did so crazy a thing~ fortunately the stuffs there love the rats~good~

I later went to the subway station and came back Kunshan with Sally. She looked fine on the train, she tried to explain for that man who picked her up~ seems that she had a nice weekend, that's enough.

I contacted Renee my colleague to ask if Gary and Andrew would go for KTV this evening, she said yes and we started to plan our night on the train. After arrived Kunshan, Sally took my super heavy bags to the hotel, and let me freely play with others, hehe, she realized I was angry that night, but actually I already forgot that small a thing, hehe, whatever, it's good to play without luggage~

We had our dinner together about 7people. I am the one who shedding weight so I didn't take anything, so they enjoyed a lot~

We had a great time in the KTV, although the quality is not satisfying, but at least we could sing~ I sang my favorite songs, all of us enjoyed alot~

about 23:20, we left the KTV for home by taxi~after got home, it's the time for world cup, Brazil VS Austrilia! I slept in the middle with a facial mask on my face~ because I am not a good socor fun~ hehe.

Monday, June 12, 2006

Happy Weekend

I had my happy weekend last Sat and Sunday, Saturday morning though I lost my voice but I could still keep a good emotion during the important meeting. I took the meeting's note the whole day long with a happy mind, because my gloomy days' passed haha, woman's always crazy, haha.
On Sunday, coz I had no more time going for Shanghai, so I could only stay in Kunshan, I went to Kunshan city for shopping with Andrew, Gary, Weier and Andy, weier's boyfriend, we sent Gary for hair cut at first then we accompanied Andrew for ware shopping and later we had a wonderful lunch altogether, Gary has a new hair style, looks happy, I love Barbecue~Brazilian Barbecue used to be my favorite one in Beijing, now I enjoyed in Kunshan~wonderful~
After our lunch we went to Bairunfa Supermarket, it's the biggest one in Kunshan city for us shopping, it's as big as Beijing Carrefour, I love it, but there're just too many people, the people here are simple, but sometimes they don't watch the road when they're walking, so watching other's became my habit here, have to make sure they don't run into me~ haha
Later dinner together after shopping, I cleaned our room after dinner, it's a big task, haha, they're really too messy, I thought myself messy but I found myself so tidy after I met them, oh my dear girls~ They came back late, and found it's so clean, they appreciated me alot~ and started to talk~ the biggest room talk we'd ever had~ so scary~~~I didn't mean the topic but the energy they have~ till 3am~~~one of them start crying about her boyfriend, the other one lying in my arms, I am very afraid of hot, they refuse to turn the air con on when theyr'e sleeping, but pls don't make me hot~ my cover was fully wet by my sweat~ at last I got few hours sleeping~ and fortunately that girl went away~my God, thank you~
The night's most wired one I'd ever had~
But quite interesting~working now, writing later

Sunday, June 11, 2006

Nanjing Travel

in the morning I got onto the nanjing train, it's one of the worst train I've ever got. I bought a cup of nuddle as my breakfast on the platform, but on the train they refused to serve me the hot water! They asked me to buy a cup of coffee! I was a little bit unhappy, I talked to her this and that, then she served it unhappily!
Before I got off the train, there was a travel angent selling their travel products, their nanjing 1day trip is 100yuan plus15yuan bus fee. so I accepted it. But after we got on to the bus they refused to pay for one of the most expensive site! I asked for the refund and 1hour later they gave back me only 85yuan. coz I warned him I am a tour guide also, I could easily sue them, undoubtedly I was before, so I cheated them.
Later I went to the most attractive site I wanted to go, the president's office of nanjing. I loved it so much. and the Zhangshan tomb. but that place I had no time to go anymore. I could only expect next time to visit Mr.Suen Yasen.
The President's office is huge and beautiful, I put the pictures in my album, I love it so much. If you have time I suggest you to visit it, it's very historical, from the taiping tianguo time until the Jiangjieshi government.
I could feel Suenyatsen's living steps there in the office and house. I love him very much so I carefully picking up every little air from this sacred place. I love there undoubtedly.
About 12:00, I finished my tour there, got some souvenirs for friends, but later found them fake. whatever.
I got the train back to kunshan, just knew how far is it, 4hours on the train. standing! Many people got on and off on the way, very disgusting, I kept smoking in the smoking area, also few people there. at last I got to kunshan at about 6pm. the bus to my hotel's already finished so I had to take a taxi back...
That;s a great weekend but the travel experience wasn't very nice so I decided to stay in the hotel for few weeks to recover. too tired.
I kept travel too much indeed

Saturday, June 10, 2006

Wu Xi Travel

hello, I upload this post one month later, so some of the details I forgot, just write some main points to you, wuxi is really a nice city!
I decided to go to wuxi just few day before I started out, since wuxi is close to kunshan, so I am just freely went to the train station directly to get my ticket, that time was about 8am, after a lone queue, the stuff told me they only have the afternoon ticket, so I went to the long distance bus station, to check if there is a chance there, fortunately there is a bus going to wuxi every clock, so I got the 9am bus ticket for 30yuan, (train ticket is about only14.) then it's only 8:15, I went to a internet cafe nearby because I knew few of wuxi, have to check it's information, so later I checked wuxi and nanjing the two cities.
l spent 20min there in the cafe, and got onto the bus. the bus's nice, much better than the train, comfortable chairs, aircon pretty cool, and also tv service. great!
1.5hrs later I got to wuxi, it's really very nice, the industry and enviroment development are nice. I went to the Beijing-Hangzhou Ancient Cannel at first, coz I'd love to see the cannel and the people living nearby. I got there, but there's no more traveler's ship service, so I kept walking 1km alone the ancient great cannel and came back by the same bus.
The taihu lake is most famous lake in China, so I must go there right? Yeah, I went there by another bus, 1hour or so I got there, it's really a big lake, very beautiful, looks like a sea!
I wandered to the ticket gate, surprised me alot, the ticket price is 105yuan! anyway, I don't want to be regret after I return to beijing, so I bought it and got into the park. There is a bus to take us to the ferry, I got onto the bus, talking with 2 Cantongers, about how's the sites etc, they told me it's nice etc., I got to the ferry, saw many people there, alot of foreigners, undoubtedly it's famous.
I got on the ferry's top deck, started my shooting, hehe, I am a picture fans! haha. it's really beautiful, you can go to my album to see it.
I got onto the island, since I know nothing of this island, but there are alot of travelers, so I just followed the tour guide, listen to her, sometimes if I am not interested in some sites or shopping, I just hurried on to catch up the other tour guide of another group. So I traveled very nice there. I saw the big died budha, about 30meters long lying inside of a curve. I also saw the god's temple, so tall! about 20meters tall or so, very huge, I also put them in my album.
The island is super nice. after the island i took the ferry back to the coming way, there're some other sites I haven't been.
I went to the baofu temple, this and that sites, very beautiful scenery left in my camera! I was so happy.
I loved wuxi so much so I decided to stay one night and go to nanjing at the other morning.
I got a hostel to stay, if there's anyone came with me, I would rather choose a hotel, sice just by myself, no need to grant me too expensive a place. I checked in and went out for supper, the supper wasn't very happy, I ordered one, suddenly within 5sec, I changed my mind to another dish, and the waitress told me they haven't yet cooked that one, but later my first ordered dish came, when they realized it's wrong, they just put the sourse of the second dish to the first dish, you could imagine how disgusting it is! I was angry, if I eat it, would be bad for my stomach coz they sourse' contradictory to the dish! I told them to cook the first dish again, they did. but charged me two dish's price...shit...I didn't want to cause any trouble so far away, okay! bear them!
Later I went to my room, the smell made me crazy, I beared to 11pm, then I really wanted to vomit. really don't know if they had ever washed it or not, even 50yuan/night should be clean at least! I went to the front desk to ask them refund! (just to scare them) they asked a girl to check for me, I showed them my angry of the bad smell, an old cloth under the bed, and so many mesquitos! My eyes were full of fire, she said they really didn't clean the room after the last custer's gone, I could imagine the last customer was a dirty farmer, haven't take a shower for ages! I commanded her to change me all of it new, otherwise...that time I was really super angry, so they did all what I commanded, and served me some tea to let me calm down. I know my angry face is scary, so seldom being angry. That's why I always smile. hehe.
Looking at the clean bed sheet and banquet, and some air cleaning stuffs on the wall, meanwhile killing the mesquitos, I felt much better, the air con is much cooler, maybe it's because my mood, hehe. I had a nice sleep after 1am. coz I loved the tv channels there. hehe
I got the train to nanjing at 5:45am. so I had to wake up early.
to be continued...

Friday, June 09, 2006

Dog Dictionary

Please protect the dogs beside you and give them a shield! Don't hurt those beautiful angels, be good to them and God will bless you!
This is the dog's Chinese and English names for your reference or interest
1 Affenpinscher 艾芬笃宾犬(猴面梗)
2 Afghan Hound 阿富汗猎犬
3 Airedale Terrier 万能梗
4 Akita 秋田犬
5 Alaskan Malamute 阿拉斯加雪橇犬
6 American Eskimo Dog 美国爱斯基摩犬
7 American Staffordshire Terrier 美国史特富郡梗(斯塔福梗)
8 American Water Spaniel 美国水猎犬
9 Anatolian Shepherd 安娜图牧羊犬 (安那托利亚牧羊犬)
10 Australian Cattle Dog 澳洲牧牛犬
11 Australian Shepherd 澳洲牧羊犬
12 Australian Terrier 澳洲梗
13 Basenji 贝吉生犬(巴仙吉)
14 Basset Hound 巴吉度猎犬
15 Beagle 贝高犬(比格犬)
16 Bearded Collie 古代长鬚牧羊犬(长须柯利牧羊犬)
17 Bedlington Terrier 贝林登梗
18 Belgian Malinois 比利时玛利诺犬(比利时马利努阿)
19 Belgian Sheepdog 比利时牧羊犬
20 Belgian Tervuren 比利时坦比连犬(比利时特弗伦)
21 Bernese Mountain Dog 伯恩山犬
22 Bichon Frise 卷毛比雄犬
23 Black and Tan Coonhound 黑褐猎浣熊犬
24 Bloodhound 血猎犬(寻血猎犬)
25 Border Collie 边境牧羊犬
26 Border Terrier 边境梗
27 Borzoi 波索尔 (苏俄牧羊犬)
28 Boston Terrier 波士顿梗
29 Bouvier des Flandres 法兰德斯畜牧犬
30 Boxer 拳狮犬
31 Briard 伯瑞犬
32 Brittany 不列塔尼猎犬(布列塔尼)
33 Brussels Griffon 比利时粗毛猎犬(布路塞尔格林芬)
34 Bull Terrier 牛头梗
35 Bulldog 老虎犬 (英国斗牛)
36 Bullmastiff 斗牛马士提夫犬
37 Cairn Terrier 凯安梗 (凯恩梗)
38 Canaan Dog 卡南犬 (迦南犬)
39 Cavalier King Charles Spaniel 查理士王小猎犬(骑士查理王猎犬)
40 Chesapeake Bay Retriever 乞沙比克猎犬
41 Chihuahua 吉娃娃
42 Chinese Crested 中国冠毛犬
43 Chinese Shar-pei 中国沙皮犬
44 Chow Chow 松狮犬
45 Clumber Spaniel 克伦伯犬
46 Cocker Spaniel 曲卡犬(可卡)
47 Collie 牧羊犬(柯利牧羊犬)
48 Curly-Coated Retriever 卷毛寻回犬
49 Dachshund 腊肠犬
50 Dalmatian 斑点犬
51 Dandie Dinmont Terrier 短脚狄文梗
52 Doberman Pinscher 都柏文犬(杜宾犬)
53 English Cocker Spaniel 英国曲卡犬(英国可卡)
54 English Setter 英国塞特犬(英国雪达)
55 English Springer Spaniel 英国曲卡犬(错了,是史宾格犬)
56 English Toy Spaniel 英国玩赏曲卡犬
57 Field Spaniel 田野猎犬
58 Finnish Spitz 芬兰猎犬(芬兰狐狸犬)
59 Flat-Coated Retriever 平毛寻回犬
60 Fox Terrier (Smooth) 猎狐梗(短毛猎狐梗)
61 Fox Terrier (Wire) 刚毛猎狐梗
62 Foxhound (American) 美国猎狐犬
63 Foxhound (English) 英国猎狐犬
64 French Bulldog 法国老虎犬(法国斗牛)
65 German Shepherd Dog 德国牧羊犬
66 German Shorthaired Pointer 德国短毛指示犬(或称波音达)
67 German Wirehaired Pointer 德国钢毛指示犬
68 Giant Schnauzer 大型史纳莎(巨型雪纳瑞)
69 Golden Retriever 金毛寻回犬
70 Gordon Setter 哥顿塞特犬(哥登雪达)
71 Great Dane 大丹犬
72 Great Pyrenees 大白熊犬
73 Greater Swiss Mountain Dog 大瑞士山地犬
74 Greyhound 格雷伊猎犬(灵缇)
75 Harrier 哈利犬
76 Havanese 哈威那(哈瓦那)
77 Ibizan Hound 依比沙猎犬 (伊比赞)
78 Irish Setter 爱尔兰塞特犬(爱尔兰雪达)
79 Irish Terrier 爱尔兰梗
80 Irish Water Spaniel 爱尔兰水猎犬
81 Irish Wolfhound 爱尔兰猎狼犬
82 Italian Greyhound 义大利格雷伊猎犬(意大利灵缇)
83 Jack Russell Terrier 积奇罗素梗(杰克罗素梗)
84 Japanese Chin 日本犬(日本仲)
85 Keeshond 荷兰毛狮犬
86 Kerry Blue Terrier 凯利蓝梗
87 Komondor 可蒙犬
88 Kuvasz 哥威斯犬 (库瓦兹)
89 Labrador Retriever 拉布拉多犬
90 Lakeland Terrier 湖畔梗
91 Lhasa Apso 拉萨犬
92 L?wchen 罗秦犬 (罗岑)
93 Maltese 玛尔济斯
94 Manchester Terrier 曼彻斯特梗
95 Mastiff 马士提夫犬
96 Miniature Bull Terrier 迷你牛头梗
97 Miniature Pinscher 迷你笃宾犬(迷你品)
98 Miniature Schnauzer 迷你史纳莎(迷你雪纳瑞)
99 Newfoundland 纽芬兰犬
100 Norfolk Terrier 罗福梗
101 Norwegian Elkhound 挪威猎麋犬
102 Norwich Terrier 罗威士梗(挪威梗)
103 Old English Sheepdog 古代英国牧羊犬
104 Otterhound 奥达猎犬
105 Papillon 蝴蝶犬
106 Pekingese 北京犬
107 Petit Basset Griffon Vendeen 迷你贝吉格里芬凡丁犬
108 Pharaoh Hound 法老王猎犬
109 Plott Hound 普罗特猎犬
110 Polish Lowland Sheepdog 波兰低地牧羊犬
111 Pointer 指示犬
112 Pomeranian 松鼠犬(博美犬)
113 Poodle 贵妇犬
114 Portuguese Water Dog 葡萄牙水犬
115 Pug 八哥
116 Puli 波利犬
117 Rhodesian Ridgeback 118 Rottweiler 洛威拿
119 Saint Bernard 圣伯纳犬
120 Saluki 东非猎犬 (萨路基)
121 Samoyed 萨摩犬
122 Schipperke 舒柏奇犬
123 Scottish Deerhound 苏格兰猎鹿犬
124 Scottish Terrier 苏格兰梗
125 Sealyham Terrier 西里汉梗
126 Shetland Sheepdog 喜乐蒂牧羊犬
127 Shiba Inu 西巴犬 (柴犬)
128 Shih Tzu 西施
129 Siberian Husky 西伯利亚雪橇犬
130 Silky Terrier 丝毛梗
131 Skye Terrier 斯开岛梗(斯凯梗)
132 Soft Coated Wheaten Terrier 爱尔兰软毛梗
133 Spinone Italiano 史毕诺犬(斯皮诺意大利犬)
134 Staffordshire Bull Terrier 斯塔福郡斗牛梗
135 Standard Schnauzer 标准史纳莎(标准雪纳瑞)
136 Sus*** Spaniel 塞式猎犬
137 Tibetan Spaniel 西藏猎犬
138 Tibetan Terrier 西藏梗
139 Vizsla 维兹拉犬
140 Weimaraner 威玛猎犬
141 Welsh Corgi (Cardigan) 威尔斯柯基犬 (卡狄根)(卡丁根威尔士柯基)
142 Welsh Corgi (Pembroke) 威尔斯柯基犬 (宾波基)(彭布罗克威尔士柯基)
143 Welsh Springer Spaniel 威尔斯激飞猎犬(威尔士史宾格)
144 Welsh Terrier 威尔斯梗(威尔士梗)
145 West Highland White Terrier 西部高地白梗
146 Whippet 惠比特犬
147 Wirehaired Pointing Griffon 钢毛指示格里芬犬
148 Yorkshire Terrier 约瑟爹利 (约克夏梗)

Thursday, June 08, 2006

My first homesick

This morning, the second time I was awaken by my homesickness, I was so much frightened by the nightmare I had of my dady, he protected me and~ I can't help myself thinking of him, I can't help...
I could only rise up at 6:30am which is an usual time for me to wake up, I went out of my room, getting the behind stairs down to the garden we have nearby a river, I sat at the bund of the tiny road, talking to God in the murmer of a prayer, I cried a little bit, not really cry, just some tears rolling down from my eyes~ I couldn't help though I always consider my self so strong~
I stoped my tears and gave my daddy a call, I know he'd be home at this time since he always rise up eary in the morning~
"Hey, daddy! How're you? I miss you~ everything fine" I pretended in a cheerful voice--"yeah, I am fine! And you, everything got used there?" He asked--I held my tears saying" Yeah! Sure I am fine! I just want to call you and say hi"--"I am fine, don't worry...I had dreamed of you twice~wish you're fine there, I worry about you..."Surprise...He had the same as I do...That's father and daughter~ "Your cat is also fine here...""I am not worrying about my cat, what I worry is you..."I said..."Yeah, I am fine, don't worry...""okay, then take care of yourself...I know you have a sore throat, and how's your cold?" He's so much caring for me~I still holding my tears in the eyes...saying" Yeah, I am fine...take care of yourself also"... ...
Then I hung off the phone...lit my cigarrets watching a little frog and a snail beside me, I took the snail, let it walking on my cigar box...imagine my home far away...
I finished two cigarretts and went back my room, took a shower then came to the office as the first person I'd ever been~
Good morning daddy~May God bless you~

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

Keep praying

Hi Everyone. I would like to remind you that the prayer's the most important element of our lives! Keep praying then you'll see that you're very strong and powerful. I just felt drained and weak in the past few days, Coz I'd been two weeks without praying since I just came to a strange city. I just recognized my weakness after Anthony came to see me, it's really a blessing from God to let me know how strange I'd been, so I sincerely suggest everyone of my friends keep praying to God, keep your faith alive.

I had a rosary this morning during Lunch time. Talking to Mother Mary about my tiredness, lifting up my whole to God, after 2pm, I suddenly felt very light, no more stress in my heart and started to count my blessings, soon after I finished all of the meeting note I'd been taking in the past few days, which I felt super boring, I also got back my passion to study Linux! That's really wonderful, God is so good to me! As long as I pray...Count your blessings now and praise the Lord always!

Monday, June 05, 2006

Shanghai Travel

On Saturday afternoon I went to Shanghai, I've got to take a taxi to the train station and go to Shanghai by train. My train was super late, I had got to wait for it about one hour at the station. waiting in a very noisy environment. but I can only do that. Fortunately I was with my HK colleagues; they're Andrew, Ken, Clarence, Leo, Jacky and me altogether six people, Andrew got to come back the same day so he's gonna be back very soon right after he arrived in Shanghai.

I got there at about 17:30 to the Shanghai Railway Station, my colleagues sent me to where I should be meeting my friend Christl and got their own way to travel. I was happy that they're very gentlemen always, hehe.

I was waiting for her and observing the first sight of Shanghai. Honestly speaking, Shanghai Railway Station isn't very nice, very messy and a little dirty, probably too many people there from outside...after I saw Christl, she told me that we were supposed to be going to see a government official---I was really nervous coz I was wearing a jogging suits, but there's no way, I already got there. So we asked a taxi driver, but he told us to walk there coz it's closed, after we'd been walking for about 15 minutes to a remote place, we found it's hard to walk there, so we hailed a taxi again, we found it's very far from the station, don't know why the taxi driver doesn't want to drive us there, it's 20 yuan for the taxi fare, so it's must be around 8-9 kilometers! He told us to walk!

We've got that place to see him---he's a middle-aged man, wearing glasses, and talking softly. He doesn't speak English; the secretary---a friend of Christl's---was doing the translation, and I was correcting her translation when it's necessary. The man was inviting us to an apartment, it's so called his office, it's a middle-sized apartment, with a lot of arts inside, I don't know if they're real or fake, I just heard him introducing about everything inside, the Jade table is 200 million years old~the stone is the only one here in China costing about 4 million~the wood's the best of all~the stone tablet is the best natural shaped of all~something like that, I consider it bullshit! Coz I am a questioning person and I could hardly believe whatever strange person or thing came to me. After about one hour of bullshitting to us, he took us to the ChongTsing Little Swan Restaurant. I've heard of that restaurant before, but I'd never got a chance to eat inside, so that's became the only worthy thing for me that night. When we came in I saw about 10 super beautiful girls doing belly dancing! That's my favorite, haha! I mean the sexy dance's my favorite, I enjoyed very much watching them at a very close seat, they're not dancing so good but their beauty got my eyes, hehe~~~

Our dinner was wonderful because of the girls but awful because of the people sitting beside me. They spoke business to me while in dinner~God I don't like talking about bullshitting business in my dinner table, especially with so many beautiful girls aside!!! But I gave him enough face to talk about whatever he likes, when I don't want to listen, I just eat and eat, or pretending not listening to him but watching the girls, hehe. He's okay, not talking too much, so this also caused him would like to talk even more to me after dinner.

We went back to his office, so called office apartment, he told me about his business going, about his company website or something like that, and showed me the~not saything the worst, but almost the most boring website I'd ever seen. Coz he treated me a wonderful dinner with the girls aside, I tolerated him and gave him also some bullshitting comments, hehe, maybe those things are enough for him~Christl was reading the Album of his with the introduction of the secretary girl, Christl was so patience~I have to learn from her. When we came home the girl even asked us to (live/sleep over/stay the night) with us~ Oh my God, okay, whatever, if me alone, I'd be very boring also, at least she's a talker to make us not feeling boring. Christl took us home.

We came home at about 22:30 with three bottle of beers. I would like to buy three because I would like to share with them, but at last I drank almost all of them, and my friends only got half a small cup of beer each. Probably I got 1.5L. It's just okay for me, not much not little. I was quite happy that night talking with them, about love, about life and about Sociality. I was introducing my way of helping the Homosexual people, and giving them the insights of respecting them as friends etc., we'd been talking till 4:25 am, and all of us got to sleep, Christl has a colleagues' cat to take care of, the cat was staying with us in one room and Sunny's staying in the other room. Christl was taking a shower and I slept very fast~ I am a dirty person, hehe, I just taking shower at my place and hotel, hehe.

We woke up at 9 am Sunday. We went to St. Peter's Church. 10 am is the English Mass, the Mass music is my favorite Mass of Creation. I enjoyed it very much. The Mass was celebrated by the bishop of Shanghai Diocease, he's very old but looks very healthy; to my surprise he speaks excellent English! All the altar boys are foreigners. We prayed the rosary altogether and waiting for the Mass start at 10:30am. The Mass was wonderful! I love it very much, took a lot of pictures. After the Mass we asked the priest to bless our rosaries, I also bought a Bible there. Then we left for the Bund

We got to the Bund about 10minutes later, it's really beautiful a Bund, looking from Puxi side, we see a lot of western buildings, we took pictures, and walked to the Nanjing Rd. also we went to the Yu yuan and the City's temple, we spent the whole afternoon in Puxi, the City's temple is a Taoist temple, with 3 halls in one temple area, it's a beautiful temple, I don't know much about it's history, it's said it's built in the beginning of 15th Century, and rebuild in 1926. the most famous Zhengyi Taoist Branch temple. Yuyuan Park is the garden of this temple, the temple's gate ticket is 5yuan, very cheap, the yuyuan Park is 40yuan, that's expensive but worthy to look at it, the whole temple plus the park is totally 10,000square meters, it's not very big but very attractive and delicacy. After the city temple's travel, we supposed to eat outside of the temple, it's widely spread that the temple's snack's the best of China, we weren't hungry, so I just planed to eat some barbecues, but just to the point before I buy it, a Singaporean warned me that's not roast pigeon at all, it's a roast bat! I was shocked and determined not to be a bat eater~

Later we walked to the sight seeing tunnel, it's also famous because it's a tunnel between east and west of Shanghai. I didn't know there's cheaper way for subway or bus before, we spent 30yuan for one way going to Pudong side, 3minutes in the tunnel. We saw many weired things inside of it, there're so called ghosts—which looks terribly ugly and not scary at all, there are lights shinning, I think generally speaking it's okay, just the “Ghost”destroyed my dream to it, haha.

After we got Pudong, we saw the Pearl's Tower at a close sight, took pictures of it, and we also went to a big shopping mall, on second floor there's a Italian restaurant, we ate there, I ordered the sea food rice, cooked with tomato, I love it very much, Christl got chicken with mushroom rice, which cooked by milk, I tried some of hers, still think mine's more matching me. hehe.

We went out of it, took picture of the pearl's Tower at close, the tower at night's super beautiful! We love it very much, then we went to the subway station, I went back to the railway station back to my city Kunshan, and she went home directly.

After I got the train at 22:02 I saw my colleagues, they bought a lot of things from Shanghai, I talked with them, half an hour later I got back to Kunshan, 22:36. The taxi they called arrived, don't know what's wrong with the driver~He drove a QQ to pick all of us, 4big boys and one girl as me! We squeezed ourselves to fit the super limited space, Jacky as his biggest size sitting in front of us, I sit with other 3boys at back, Ken and I are sitting by the side, and Clarence and Leo's sitting in the middle, Ken and I round our arms on Clarence's shoulder in order to stablize ourselves, Leo's a little fat, he tried to sit as front as possible to give us more space for our hips, haha, it's really wonderful an experience, Ken kept shouting coz he felt his hip's super painful and numbed at last. Our car droved crazily, got home just by 22:56! It's never been this fast! Remember that we took about 2hours when we came dim the time we waited for the train? It'd be wonderful if everytime's like this speed! Haha!

I got my hotel soon, and enjoyed my night dreaming of Shanghai...

Friday, June 02, 2006

Music Love

Today since I am very free, so I would love to share with you my comments about guitar, to all the people who's reading my blogger I give thanks to you!

About guitar, I am not a authorized speaker, coz I am not a good player, I just love music and would express myself through guitar. I am speaking of music but not guitar is because music is the centre, any instrument is just the tool to express your thought, your idea of music, but not music itself. I speak of this is just because I remembered of a forum spoke about piano and guitar, the piano play said the piano's very elegant, guitar players said the guitar's their will of music but not forced by their parents, something like that, somepeople used some bad words there to fight with each other about this "elegant"topic! Back to myself, at least you're reading my blogger but not their forum's Ctrl+C/V.

I love music deep in my heart, I think everyone of my readers also, I
consider it's the love of God to us, to make us living happily on this sorrowful earth. I never fully appreciate myself until I started to sing loudly myself alone in the room of darkness, I never appreciate the love of God until I started to sing to the Lord. And I never feel so much power love until I knew music can be so powerful to move my heart! I am just appreciating and purely loving music!

I am not a good singer, not a good player, not even good at the knowledge of music, but I love to sing, love to play guitar, love to know anything about it, and also appreciate those who sings well and play music well, I like Faye's singing voice, I'd been singing her songs for more than 10years, My friend Malcolm's also singing woderfully and I like Malcolm and Chito's guitar playing, they're really doing great on music and making music their beauty of life!

I'd been loving the songs like the country songs, Angel voice's singing like Faye's, or any other kind of music witch enlightened to soul and making people alive. I don't like so much the histerical way to play electronic guitar with fast moving fingers on the board, it's good to please girls when they're in love, good to make men feel exited or accomplished when they're playing this kind, but I don't feel it's really in the rythme of one's life. sounds like of death, (maybe I am not pleasing those who love this kind but don't mind, it's just my comments here in my blogger, you can leave your comments below and we can share). I am reminding myself the happiness in this world by music, I am reminding myself the truthfulness and pureness of this world etc., all by music, I appreciate those who play accoustic guitar well, coz that's the hardest to play well. Although it's very easy to pick it up, but it's also very easy to drop it or to stop studying it after you got the smile of your loved girl or boy, accoustic guitar is very hard to learn for me after so many months I'd been learning it. I found there's lot of barriers I have to cross during my study. But I will try to keep on learning. I wish I can accomplish my self study guitar course, hehe.

When I came to Kunshan, I brought my guitar with me, when I was in the train, I put it aside of me, to sleep with it, when I was in HK, I bought it very hard-coz the salesman didn't pack up well for me so I had to carry it very hard, when I was bringing my dear guitar to anywhere, I am thinking of bringing my wish and my dream, I am thinking of being with my loved one, that is how much guitar to me, I hate those people who crash their guitar when they're angry, or expressing their roughness, guitar's innocent but killed by those stupid people, when I selled one of my guitar-the one I used for basic practice-I told the buyer to take care of my guitar, even if someday he doesn't like the guitar, would through it away, just remind me, I will pay some money to pick it back, and he promised me he'll never do that, also he'd keep the name of the guitar"Berna" I was so grateful.

I don't know why I talk about these things today, but I wish everyone can take delight in music and feel the love of God through music...

Try to sing a love song to God then you'll know what I am talking about.

Thursday, June 01, 2006

Happy Children's Day

The Children's Day wasn't so special as the dragon boat day, since we're all good children, we didn't go for beer or smoking too much, hehe, we just finished our tasks at work and went home early, although it's early, we didn't just sleep right away. I did something good!~

I brought some books with me from Beijing, those are the music books from Hong Kong or the Philipines, all English songs, since I am the trainer to teach them IT English, so buy the way I could teach them other field of English, they love it! yesterday daytime I also taught some of them cooking English, hehe. I took out the song books and started to play guitar on it, they love the songs and would love to learn, that's good, I began to teah them the lyrics, since those are catholic songs, so they are forced to learn songs to praise God if they wanna sing, hehe, this is the good here, they have no choice, hehe. I taught them the simple songs, which easy to sing. until about 12:30am~midnight. we find if we go on singing or watching TV loudly would disturb other rooms, so we droped the guitar and about to sleep, but it isn't the end.

Soonly we found ourselves hard to sleep so we started to talk, the reason why I gave up 2persons' room but choose to get a 3 people's is just because those two girls are very kind and very warm hearted, at one hand I don't need to take care of them much-coz they will take care of me instead, second is that we all good at talking~hehe. So we started our topic~LOVE~

We talked about some love films which I am not familiar, we talked about their love experiences, one of the girl even never ever had a boyfriend during her 25years of life! Oh my goodness, I thought she has a good looking, hehe, and we also talked about our colleagues, not their personal affairs but just trying to get one boy for that girl, she's not interested in any of them, oh my God. That's hard! Since we're a technical company, 85%of our colleagues are men, most of them are Hong Kongers, others are from Beijing, Shanghai, Guangdong or the North east provinces, some of them super rich, some of them super handsome, and most of them are single~if in this field she couldn't find any where can I get her one???!!!

In the middle of our talk I'd got a Children's Day greeting sms from my friend Malcolm, haven't thought he'd be sending me this greeting sms, hehe, feel so warm and happy. though it's already past midnight, I happily replied him~


We chatted till about 2:30am, and happily went sleep~

Dragon Boat's feastival

Yesterday's the famous dragon boat festival for Chinese people, in rememberance of the most famous poet Qu1yuan2, the tradition of Chinese is to eat rice dumplings at this day. I thought it's not a big festival, probably our company would just let it go, but~each one of us got a rice dumpling from our company! I felt so warm since I'm far away from home. I thought it's just like this, no, it's just a beginning.

After we finished our work My roomates and me went to have our supper together to celebrate by ourselves, we ate simply, since I've been having some sort of tooth ache these days. After our supper I saw Gary, the one who's always take care of me. He told me that Andrew and others would like to drive to Bacheng Village to get something, since I haven't been there, they'd like to invite me to join in them. I happily agreed and got on their car.

We got there fast, just 10minutes for drive I think, or maybe less. They started their purchasing, I don't know why they bought so many things then, so I just follow. Finally they got a small but clean restaurant and got our vip room, we ordered some dishes and lots of beers and started to celebrate our dragon boat's festival.

During the supper Gary and me were sitting together, we drunk alot and meanwhile he smoked alot, I also did but not too much~We talked alot, joked alot with one another, speaking and teaching each our own dialect, since I am the one without dialect so I was absorbing them, hehe.

Later after our dinner we went back to our hotel. One the way back, a girl said she had prepared a wishing candle to put into the river so we'd got to join her for her safety, we got to a bank of river, a big river and two guys helped her to put the candle. the night was very windy, don't know how's the candle right after we put it in to the river.

While they were puting the candles, Andrew and me, also other boys were playing ghostly games, talking strange and scaring one another, hehe. Andrew took a picture of both me and the other boy, we soonly became shadows in the picture~Andrew were scared a lot and deleted that picutre. Hehe.

Later after everyone's ready, we got onto the car back hotel. very exiting while talking about the ghost, which used to be my favorite stories during my childhood. After we got to our own room, I saw a strange girl in my room with my roomates, I started to kid on her, coz most boys are okay with the ghost stories unlike girls so~hehe you could guess her reaction~(Hey, are you the "someone"? there's a girl looking for you said she knew you before, and she's stand outside of the room, she knows that you're coming back to your room and said she'd be there soon. I wasn't sure how's her looking, coz I couldn't see her clearly, her eyes~) Those are the easiest to let girls feel frightened. hehe

I am a naughty girl, and enjoy my naughtiness~

I like my dragon boat festival very much!

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

I love Kunshan

Finally I got Kunshan, the first impression of this city to me is the train station. I saw the walls with ceramics and the street with fewer people. I like the calmness of this city

I asked a stuff about how to get to the bus stop, he answered me nicely with politeness. I was quite contented after the terrible experience of Suzhou. Hehe. I got the stop easily and on the bus for about 50minutes to my company.

On the way I saw the most beautiful villas I'd ever seen, even in the rich part of Beijing, I didn't see such beautiful range, very luxious villa with a river by it's side, very little people living in the same community so all the people are living easily safe and sound here. some rivers around the city. and those rivers are very clean. not as dirty and disgusting of suzhou river. This kind of river is the ones in my dream place. hehe

I finally got my office, I found everyone there happy and contented, I was arranged to live with my favorite colleague in the same hotel room, the room's quite clean and neat, not super luxious but quite okay with the 4star hotel title. My office's also very big, many times of my Beijing office. althought it's already big enough. I love here. in the afternoon I met our general boss here. talked to him for quite some time about our training program plan. He's quite interested and gave me alot of precious suggestions. I felt easier here.

In the lunch time I had lunch with my colleagues, one of my friend invited me, he also came to pick me up from the station, we also had our dinner together, we drank some beer and ate something we like, that's my first day meal. I had a great time here.

My place is quite remote, not as close to shanghai as I thought before, although all the companies here are based in shanghai or suzhou, or international ones, but really not that close. I saw some beautiful Golf court, the best one I'd seen, of course bigger and more natural than beijing's. and many things I'd been dreaming of, I all got them here. I love the real estate here the most, second is that it's although close to shanghai but living easily, no noise, no people around, no pressure, so here is the best place for both living and work. Great city it is!

I love Kunshan, it's make my coming 3 months livable, and my beautiful colleagues are also the great reason for me to be here.

I changed my number to Gotone/China mobile: 13962634059

I hate Suzhou

I got Suzhou at last at 6:48am from my best experienced train to the worst experienced city!

Because I have to change another train to Kunshan where I am working, so I left the train station and about to ask where's the ticket box, when I asked, actually I asked 3stuffs, none even looked at me much less answering my question...I felt very angry but I kept my temper low, the last one at least gave me a "humble" sign of pointing her fishy hand to a place vaguely...at last I got their with about 5minutes walking...

The breakfast sellers and the non-licensed taxi drivers were around the road draging me...felt so bad of here...

At last I got the ticket of 10yuan from Suzhou to Kunshan, I heard it's only 3.5yuan from my colleagues so I thought it should be a good train, worthy of this price.

But when I got on to the platform, I found out that it's...the worst train I'd ever seen! I thought maybe the toilet was broken...so it's super smelly on the platform...I beared all this and steped on to the train. found there's even no space for me to stand...with my guitar and my travel bag...fortunately I asked for currier service, otherwise I'd be dead! Coz my hand has a scar, so I could easily detect my blood's condition from there, I just saw my scar turning from pink to purple...because of lack of oxygen...

At last I got to Kunshan safely...half hour on the train...almost killed me with it's air...

The best train I have ever taken in my life

While on the train, I feel the stuffs are very warm hearted, they served me personally with their self introduction at first, later they served some hot water for my instant nuddle, and they speak very nicely. I felt so touched...really. coz I'd been on train for so many years, never felt so great service on the train, I asked them if they belong to beijing railway company, they said yes, oh mine! I should have taken this train long time ago!

I felt very easy with the air temperature and the facilities there, the toilet is nice and clean! great! I never smelled a little bit bad smell in that toilet for the whole session of nearly 11hours. that's very hard for them! Their hard work made all of our passengers feel at home! So I sincerely thank them for all of this. If later you have the chance, I suggest you to try on it. T85 from Beijing-Suzhou. 19:28-6:48 quite nice!

I love it!

getting the train to suzhou

Last night I had a awful experience in Beijing railway station, my administration department colleague told me to go on the train from Beijing west station, while my train would be leaving at 7:28, I was there at 6:50, sudenlly the station stuff told me that I came to the wrong station, it should be start from the beijing station...my head was like twice big, grabing my dady rushing to the other one.

I saw a taxi at the gate, we got on it fastly, since our behavior was like super urgent, the driver immediately asking money from us, like 150yuan for the entire trip...usually it's only 20yuansomething from the west station to the beijing station, since we were rushing for time and the car was already started, he promised us be sure to send us there, I could had only praise him with my hypocritical mouth, saying that he's so kind something, we're all beijinger etc., at last we end the deal at 100yuan...5times of usual.

We got there on time dangerously, indeed he tried hard, he drove more than 100miles an hour in some safe session of the road. I fastly said goodbye to my daddy and got onto the train...

Monday, May 29, 2006

I'm leaving Beijing...I will miss you Dear Beijing

I am leaving. This morning, my dady helped me for my packed packages for currier service. My hands cannot lift up so many things to Kunshan-Shanghai, I feel so grateful to him!
On my way to the company, I felt so sad of leaving here...I love here for sure, although I always complain about this and that of Beijing, even wrote to the government asking for changes, but I still love here so much, if anyone trash a piece of paper before me on the road, I would advice him to trash it properly, I am so devoted to this city, I advertise here on website, I also donated my blood to this city's people on my 18years old, it's my first day of legal blood donation day, with this love I am leaving here to an unknown city Kunshan...
I also miss the friends here second place, I love all of them. On the Bus I keep flashing back all the great memories I had with my friends, the dinner last Friday, Nanshan Ski, horse riding and the choir, the hh meeting every Sunday, they're very memorable for me... I will keep my friends in my heart and remember them always in my heart! With my love with them always no matter where I go to.
I love my family, though we just gather once or few times a year but we love and care for each other, I wish to bring them more love and peace after I come back.
My God, I know you are with me, no matter where I go to, how lonely I feel, I know you're there for me.
Okay. I will be preparing to leave my office now for home. To everyone who read my blogger please pray for me and keep in touch with me!

Sunday, May 28, 2006

Assension Sunday

I woke up 11:30am this morning, felt very sad because I promised Malcolm to listen to him today, I was very worried if he was expecting me to be there... I didn't know if the Mass was finished or not, so I sent him a sms, fortunately he told me that he's not singing because he composed the wrong Psalm~ the church celebrated the Ascension today. I felt very much released and started my photo scan again:-) until 14:00, I completely finished my Album, I set out for shopping.
Malcolm's sms again, he asked me to take care of myself and rest well today so that I could travel well tomorrow:-D I will
I went to the North church Mass later after shopping, I don't know why, after having been in the International church for so many years, I couldn't take the Chinese Mass...I always feel sleepy, very sleepy while during the Chinese Mass, I slept twice during the priest's homily while I tried to take 2Chinese Masses in the past week, everytime I sleep without my own conscious...what happened!? I need to practice more!
Later I went to a small HK cuisine restaurant to have my supper, I found myself eating much less after the accident, great that I can shed weight without too much effort. haha. Next week will be Holy Spirit Descension day. Expecting...