What is love?

I would question God: what is love? Since dating with my "boyfriend" for quite a while, but I still don't know what is the meaning of love. I ever experienced the feeling of love was just with the only one I loved before...maybe yet still...
We attended a music event this day, and they were all stood before me and met each other...of course, I believe two of them recognized each other by my secret introduction. But my heart told me my boyfriend isn't the one I love!
I was shy to hold his hand before him, and I was shy to look at him when he walks with me...to call them meet each other is this way was my way to let myself really let go of the one I loved, but I am not sure how could this be done successfully, everytime I tend to let something done, it goes the other way!
I am afraid of the relation in this way...but whatever...probably it's good just to let them stay in their respective place and not seeing each other, this would be easier for me to deal with.
I really wish him love me...as my love for him...
Today we took some pictures with my performance white gown. they look like wedding pictures, although boyfriend doesn't like, but he knows what I mean...
I love him...still...
If this is the way of love, let it be...