New life without him!

I decide to quit my love to him, it's a big decision, I can't hold it on anymore, it's such a boring thing to love him so much for one year. I've had enough of it!
It's his fault never had told me that he had a gf, it's his fault never told me he doesn't like me at all, it's also his fault to let me be...so that's why I had wasted one year on him...
It's not only his fault of course, because I am so passionate, none could ever stop my mind. So I was loving him with my whole heart and soul, I could not blame him, coz he'd been my friend and cared for me...
woofs...my soul's free
Sure that I already quited the love, sure that I already forgot. I will give him more space of mind in his life...
Staying in the English Choir was all because of him, otherwise I left long before...but right now I...should I leave? I still like there...okay, just give myself few weeks to recover from my throat problem, later I will decide whether to leave.
I can't speak always...I lost my voice twice already. And I had serious tratheitis in the past. And I love singing that much！I should really have taken care of myself, quit smoking soon, or at least smoke much less than before. I also should be happy so that I could do my new program well，being a trainer that I must speak up! I love this program, and I believe that I could have done it! For sure!
This love is probably the longest love of my life, I will never love anyone more than him, but I will quit, because I loved. Love is such a poison, it kills and gives pain, but people would rather take it to get rid of this messy deadly world...I will get strong of myself to work on my dream!
Forget me, I will leave you alone.
---I will forget you! Forget what you had done to hurt me and what you'd done to let me cry!